with all of my stuff packed i had 15 minutes tell we had to leave so i showered and changed because i was all sweaty.
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once i was done i headed down stairs with all the stuff that was in my room to see my mom standing at the bottom with a beer in her hand.
*flashback 10cyears ago*
i couldn't sleep after he left, not only because i was sad but i didn't know what she would do when she found out. my mother has been drinking for years and i don't think she'll ever stop but recently its been getting worse, she has been drinking so much, the next day i would find her on the floor with pee in her pants. i knew once my mother found out what happened she would be livid. why did he leave me with her? why couldn't he take me too? i was pulled out of my thoughts once i started hearing footsteps walking around the house. then a few seconds later a faint cry. i hated seeing my mom like this. he has left before but for some reason it felt different this time. i knew he wasn't coming back and thats what hurt the most. not many people can say that there first heart brake was from there father. a couple days go by and my mom has been locked in her room for almost 24 hours and im starting to get worried. i would put my ear up to her door and listen for any noise just to confirm shes okay. i haven't heard a noise come from her room in over 5 hours i begin to bang on the door. no answer. i start to really freak out. i bang on the door a little more and hear nothing in return. i dicide to call 911. once the ambulance arives they brake down the door to reveal my mother white as a peice of paper next to a pill bottle poured out on the bed with a beer in her hand but now fell over. they flip her over and begin preforming CPR. a few minutes later they find a weak pulse and rush her to the ambulance leaving me standing in the door way. as they pull off i closed the door and couldn't comperhend what i just witnessed. how could she leave me? she wouldn't want to stay in a world without him in it and that was the truth to it but i couldn't shake the fact that i wouldn't be enough for her to stay.
-end of flashback back to present.-
"good luck sweety" my mom says as she reaches for a hug i hug her back. "thank you mom" i say as i let go and look at jimmy. "okay lets get going" jimmy sighs as he picks up what was left of my stuff. "good bye mom" i say as i close the door behind me. "your going to love the bay" jimmy says reasuringly. "its beautiful. and you'll have me" jimmy says confidently. "don't worry im not having second thoughts i can't wait to start over." i state as we get in the car. we had a 30 minute car ride so i put my headphones in and played some music. i haven't been on my phone in a day so i had many notifications so i went threw them. *nbsmallerbear messaged you* oh shit.
