The car ride to Nicks was quiet. I didn't fully know what I was doing and the longer I sat in the car the more my thoughts began to catch up with me. Nick had really hurt me and even if that wasn't enough he had to get with juliet. I know he said he didn't know but that doesn't change the fact. He's become so much more aggressive with me. My wrist hurt from him grabbing me. He must have noticed me rubbing my wrist.
"I'm sorry" he says with his eyes glued to my wrist.
"I care about you so much, Bri, I never meant to hurt you. Even just the thought of you with someone else drives me crazy." he says as the uber pulls up to his house.
When we finally got inside I was flooded with memories from all the times we were together and most vividly the last.
Nick comes up from behind me and pulls on my bathing suit cover up trying to get it off.
"Nick, I want to talk" I say , trying to actually have a conversation.
"Okay, let's talk," he says, taking my hand and leading me to his living room.
"Why didn't you just tell me about Jimmy nick?" I am confused.
"I didn't tell you about it because I already knew how bad you and Jimmy were doing and i didnt want to make it worse," he says, holding eye contact with me.
"I needed you and you left me. You left me alone with nothing. And your saying you didn't want to make it worse?" i say with tears filling my eyes.
"No bri its not like that i wa-" before he could finish i cut him off.
"No nick it is like that. It's because you care about football so much and you know if you didn't listen to jimmy it could threaten that right?" i say almost yelling.
"Bri that's not tr-" I cut him off again.
"No nick it is because if you did love me more than football or your big ego you would have told me and never would have just let me live in a hotel for two weeks." I say now standing up from the couch.
"It's not about how you picked your career over me because I understand that, it's the fact that you would just throw everything away like it meant nothing to you" I continued yelling.
"You mean the world to me" he said near a whisper.
"Then why? Why did you throw it all away?" i cry.
"I was stupid Bri, i should have never let you leave okay?!" nick raises his voice a bit, catching me off guard.
"I know that, i have regretted it every single day since. I can't stand not being with you, Not being in your presence throughout the day, not waking up next to you, I missed you so much." he adds.
I sit back down and continue to process what he just said. I am so hurt with him and I really need more time to process everything.
" for me to be able to forgive you I'm gonna need more time." I say lightly.
"Are you still going to talk to brock?" he asks seemingly upset.
"I don't know Nick, maybe." I say while standing back up.
"If you want me to be able to talk to you and not feel any type of way, I'm gonna need more time. And I'm going to continue talking to Brock. If I tell you I wasn't interested I would be lying and the last thing I want to do to you is lead you on." i say.
"Okay i understand." he says while looking down.
"Alright well i'm gonna go" i say as i begin walking to the door.
"Just let me take you home at least" he says getting up and grabbing his keys. I didn't argue because I hate taking ubers.
Once we got to his car and began the drive it was awkwardly silent for the majority of the ride. When we started getting closer to the hotel, he cleared his throat.
"I love you Bri and I am willing to wait however long I need for you to come back to me." he says as he stops the car at the front.
"I love you too Nick" I say as I kiss him on the cheek and open the car door.
"Thank you for the ride," I say.
"No problem" he says with a soft smile.
I close the car door and head inside.
Once i get inside my hotel room i quickly jump into the shower and change into:
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After doing my night routine I decided to call Brock.
"Hey" I say when he finally answers.
"Hey, I didn't think you were gonna call me tonight," he said, surprised.
"Why did you think that?" I asked with a laugh.
"Because I thought for sure you were gonna be with Nick," he says.
"Yeah we talked for a bit then he dropped me off" I replied.
"How did that go?" he asks, concerned.
"It went okay, i told him i needed space to even be able to talk to him again and that i wanted to still talk to you and get to know you" i reply shyly.
"Really?!" he responds surprised.
"Yeah" I say back.
"Can I come pick you up for a movie night, just me and you?" he asks.
"We can talk more," he adds.
"Yeah, I would really like that," I responded.
"Okay i'll be there in 20" he says quickly.
"Okay text me when you're outside." i say before hanging up.
Authors note:
Hey Guysss. i am so so so sorry for being so inactive but i am backkk and i will try to get a new chapter out as soon as possible. i cant believe its almost been a year since i started this book. my niners have been doing so freaking good omg i love them sm. we play the eagles sunday and best belive ur girl is bitting her mf nails. i swear that guy that hurt purdy if i seen him in person i would trip him. anyways plz plz plz plz plzzzzzz vote and help me out babes i love yall and comment what yall think: should we give Big Cock Brock a chance or whattt??? okay guys im gonna gts bc i have work tm love uuuuu<3333
