Marvel Imagines

Im asking for help

Age ~ 16
Trigger Warning : Depression, Self Harm Talk
Female Y/n

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I just feel kinda empty. You know? That feeling where I don't want to leave my bed or leave the compound. It engulfs me when I'm alone at night. When everyone else is doing mission reports or hanging out or relaxing alone. Obviously, I need to tell someone, I want to tell someone. I want the feeling to go away. But in order to get the help I need to tell someone but I'm scared too. My mom would help me. I just need to pluck up the courage to ask her. To tell her how I'm feeling.

I'm sitting alone, the feeling drowning all my thoughts even with the music I'm playing in my headphones blasts in my ears. It's all just, to hard to handle. I throw myself back, my head hitting my pillow as my thoughts consist of wanting to hurt myself or just feeling like I'm not worth it. I see my door open in the corner of my eye but ignore it. As if it never happened.

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Natashas Point of View

Y/n has been hiding alot more doing the night. After dinner, just taking herself away from everyone. I've been wanting to see if she's okay for a while but haven't felt the time was right. Tonight, before going to my room to spend the night doing my mission report, I decided to go check on her. Get it over with.

I get to her door and knock, no reply. Its not uncommon so I knock again and open the door to poke my head in. "Y/n sweetheart?" I ask for her. No reply as I see she's got her headphones on. Must me loud because she normally replies. To try get her attention, I flick her light off then back on. She quickly sits up and looks over at the door to see me in the doorway.

She pauses her music and tale of the headphones before talking. "Sorry mom, I was in my own world." She tells me. I nod and smile a little. Looking down at the floor I try to get my words out. Finally, I step into the room, "It's okay love, is it okay if I speak to you?" I ask her gently. Not too push her. She nods, "Yeah sure, everything okay?" She asks me, curious about what I want to speak too her about. I walk over to her bed and sit myself beside her.

I gulp a little, showing I was nervous about asking her how her mental health was doing. She tilts her head a little, "Momma, is everything okay?" She asks me. I nod a little before looking her in the eyes and taking her hands in mine.

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Y/ns Point of View

Feeling my mom taking my hands in hers made me know it was important. Her nervous gulp impling it more. The silence drowning the room. I look at her properly. Finally, she speaks "Are you okay detka?" She asks me, the concern in her voice. I look down, "Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I ask her as if she doesn't know whay she's asking me. She cups my cheek in her warm hand.

"It's just, I've noticed you being off lately. I know you've been struggling with your mental health and i-" I cut her off before she can continue. "Momma.." I  mumble. She nods, "Yes?" She asks a little.

"Actually, I'm not okay." I tell her. She nods and looks me in the eyes, greatful she came to see me when she did. She kisses my cheek, "Tell me detka." She coos. I nod and start explaining how I feel.

"Well, I feel numb..I feel like I'm not worth it. I don't wanna get out of my bed. I'm exhausted all day but hide it. And, I want to hurt myself. To get the feeling to go away. I haven't but I want too." I tell her. Sighing in relief from getting it of my chest. She nods.

She hugs me, "Thank you for telling me detka, what do you want to do?" She asks me. I look at the floor, "I think I'm asking for help Momma." I tell her, hoping she understands. She nods and sits beside me, taking me into her embrace. I smile, leaning my head into he crook in her neck. "We can sort that tomorrow, but for now, let's be together."

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Hey guys, please give me ideas! In honeslty running out and it's starting to feel like what I write is how I'm feeling.

Ps, if you ever feel like hurting yourself or wanna talk please tell or ask someone. Its worth it.

My discord is: Riles#9044