When It's Cold I'd Like To Die

13:21pm

''So, uh, do you want to maybe... talk to her?''

Justin glanced at him, frowning at Clay like if he had gone bonkers. 

''You just talk to her grave, I mean, people do it all the time,'' Clay shrugged his shoulders, pursing his lips whilst watching Justin hesitate whilst clinging onto his bag. ''Don't worry, it's not something mental.'' 

''But, like, what's the point?'' Justin questioned. 

''Well, uh, I like to believe that maybe she's listening,'' Clay told him, giving him a small smile of encouragement. He was curious. Would Justin take on the proposition Clay had given him to talk to Hannah. 

 ''I've, uh, never been to Hannah's grave before,'' Justin admitted. 

''Well, uh, I mean, it doesn't really matter, I mean, we're here, now, right?'' Clay tried to be optimistic, feeling as if he was failing at it tragically. 

''I should've visited,'' Justin sighed. 

Clay just joined in on the constant sighing, which was really just filling in for the silence they couldn't get rid of in words. 

''I'll go and uh, wander around the area,'' Clay stood up, leaving Justin to whatever he wnted to do at Hannah's grave. Clay didn't really expect much from Justin, although he did glance at him a few times whilst walking down a row of tombstones and a free trees. 

Justin watched as Clay mindlessly wandered towards a large memorial that stood in the distance. He was stuck here, sitting at Hannah's grave, unable to stop himself from reflecting, quickly falling into the deep depths of his mind. 

Justin didn't really know what to tell Hannah, it's not like she was here, and even if she listened, he doubted that she would listen to him. He doubted a lot of things. This included. Yet it kind of made him uneasy. Hannah would hate it if he just came here and didn't say anything or feel any remorse. 

Of course he felt remorse. 

Justin was quick o question himself a lot, he didn't really trust himself with claims, even if they were true. He wasn't really a good person. If he was, he wouldn't be here right now. To be dead in the next couple of hours and sitting at a grave of a girl who killed herself because of him. Justin believed that it was all him. He started the chain of events for Hannah. 

Sighing, Justin began to speak.