'Selfish'
'Mediocre'
'Not good enough'
'Ignorant'
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Maybe I've started to believe it. Maybe I am just a stupid selfish person who can't do anything right. Maybe I'll never be deserving of anything in my life. Maybe I should try harder.
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But I'm so tired of trying. I am so tired of knowing the failure I am. I wanna do something right. I wanna make 'you' proud. I wanna show that I am capable of doing things for myself that I can be someone.
Am I just... useless. I just wanna sleep and stay in my dreams forever. At least there I won't be a bother for anyone.
Lately I found myself sleeping more to avoid everything. I've reached a point were sleeping is the only thing I really want to do and enjoy. I am tired of life, everyday seems more dull than the other. I wanna................
See you next time
I think
