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Nautica James
Charlotte, NC
September 2021

"So she in the crazy house?" I asked in disbelief, I ended up having Kerian track down Sin. He was real good with computers and ended up getting her hospital and arrest records.

Apparently, she she had a brain tumor. She had about 17 months left to live and had to be admitted to receive treatment, so she turned herself in because she knew she wouldn't go to jail.

"Yeah, this some bullshit. She on major lockdown since she's considered an inmate so there's no way to get to her until they release her." Kerian said backing away from the computer putting his head down. Me, him and Cobe been working non stop trying to locate this bitch but she was under the radar until her doctors appointment. By the time we got notice she had gotten checked out, she was already at the police station.

"Don't stress it, she gone get hers regardless" I said before getting up and walking out the room. I needed to smoke.

I hate that Aris gotta go through this bullshit. She literally don't bother nobody and people constantly fucking with her.

I'm not mad about the situation from yesterday at all, I know how she gets and I know she going through something so I wasn't holding it against her. I just can't deal with her attitude and the yelling.

I keep explaining to her all she has to do is communicate when she has a problem but she constantly resorts to yelling and it's not something I do good with.

I finished rolling before starting my car and heading towards the gym. I had a pretty rough week and I just needed to clear my mind.

CYBAH by Syd and Lucky Daye played softly in the background as I sparked my blunt. I was thinking about finding me a therapist, I felt like I needed it. I never had a healthy outlet for my emotions. it's always just been me and Kerian, we never really had anybody to look up to or teach us life essentials.

Thinking about my past started to send me into a spiral so I tried to get myself out my head but it was too late. I felt my attack coming so I pulled over on the highway and just waited for it to come.

I hated moments like this.

My body would just shut down and I couldn't do anything but sit there and cry. I felt pathetic and weak. Nothing worked, nothing helped. I just had to sit here and deal with it until it was over.

This is another reason I like to keep to myself so much, it's hard to explain to people what's wrong with me when I can't explain myself. It's hard to open up to try to get help when I can't even help myself.

I just don't feel like there's anybody that understands me but I'd rather go get help than sit suffering trying to force myself to be okay and I crash out. It's not just me I have to worry about anymore.

About 30 minutes later I finally calmed down and started making my way home. I didn't even feel like going to the gym anymore. I just wanted to lay down.

I really hated days like this.

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It's been about 6 hours since my panic attack. I came home and took a nap for a little while and now I'm just researching and scheduling me a therapy appointment. I couldn't keep going through life like this, especially now that I have somebody I see myself planning a future with.

I finished that before planning something out for Aris. I called her mom to see if she could watch Bug for about 3 days and luckily she said yes. I went ahead and cleaned up and ran to the store to get some stuff before heading over to Aris' house.

I finally got there and went ahead and let myself in since I knew the code. I walked upstairs to Bugs room and saw her watching her iPad.

"Now I know you see me standing here" i said to her mugging her slightly.

"NAUTI!!" she screamed jumping up and running over to me. "I missed you!!"

"I missed you too bug" i chuckled out bending down and hugging her back. "Do you mind if I take your mommy out for a couple days"

"Uh uh" she said shaking her head and I nodded before picking her up and bringing her with me to her mama room.

Her room door was already open so I walked right in and sat down on the bed putting Bug down beside me. Aris was in the bathroom I was guessing so I just flipped through her TV for something to watch before she came out.

"What you doing here?" she said coming out five minutes later in a towel. I looked her up and down licking my lips. She was so fine.

"Damn, you ain't wanna see me?" i asked mugging at her.

"Fix your face, that ain't cute" she said walking over to her closet to get dressed.

"Yeah whatever, dress in something comfortable we going out" i said leaning back on the bed watching TV.

"Where?" she asked me from the closet.

"Just do what I said, girl" i said rolling my eyes. She was so nosey.

30 minutes later she was dressed and had Bug ready so we headed out the door. We got into the car and I started heading towards her moms house.

"Why we going to my mama house?" she asked looking up from her phone.

"How you know for sure that's where we going?" i asked her turning down the music a little bit.

"Cause' i'm not dumb" she said rolling her neck and eyes.

"Them bitches gone get stuck one day, keep on" i said to her not answering her question.

We finally got to her moms house and I went around to open the door for her and Bug. I had texted her mom when we were close so she was outside waiting on us already.

"Hi my baby! Oh, I missed you so much!" she said as Hari ran straight to her.

"I missed you!! Do I get to stay with you while mommy and Nana go out?" she asked her as they broke away from their hug.

"Of course, Bug. Come on, let's go I got some cookies baked and a fort built up for us already" she said taking her in the house completely ignoring me and Aris.

"I know she didn't.." Aris said looking at me in disbelief. "My baby ain't even tell me bye" she said pouting.

"Girl, come on. We on a time limit" I said walking her back towards the car and heading towards the airport when we got in.

I pray she enjoyed this.
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