alone

chapter 4

ayyyoooooo lets do this sh!t

i turn around shocked. i was scared to death. someone was following. i looked back again, there was no one there all of a sudden i felt something drop on my shoulder and i look up.

"the fuck miles." i cursed. he smiled and dropped back to the floor. i was kinda happy he was here i just wanted to speak with someone. he looked at me and smiled.

"you like mike, and boris.... don't you?" he said i was kind of surprised at how he always knew what i was thinking. i just sighed.

"i dont know i really dont." he gave me a slightly demented smile. i didn't care as he got closer. he was now a few inches away from me and he opened his mouth ready to speak but i started to lean forward accidentally. i quickly pull back. he looked calm, losing his smile for a second then he re-gained it.

"... do you ever think that maybe boris might be using you." he began. i stopped breathing for a second and i felt pissed but... why does it matter I'm using him, to get to mike. he noticed my reaction and continued.

"but why would you care, your using him." i wanted to ask how he would know that that but he just spoke again.

"he likes this kid named theo. theo talks about a girl so he decide to talk about you a week later... weird." miles circled around me and he looked me in my eyes. why would i care i don t like him. I'm only 'dating.' him to get to mike. i think but miles st arts to get closer and i cant help but feel a strange feeling of anger.

"theo and him kissed. yesterday, ask him. he'll tell you that theo kissed him. but i saw it." he says inching closer.

"yeah, and where is your proof." he pulled out a picture out his pocket and i was shocked. he was kissing theo. theo looked shocked. i was so mad... but why. i didn't care anymore cuz i was crying. i was embarrassed. and i hugged miles, feeling a sense of hatred. for mike, for boris and for myself. myself for feeling mad.

"... he doesn't like you." miles says sadly and i felt this sense of sympathy in his voice but i couldn't believe him. i wanted to just punch Boris in the face and that is what i was going to do. i let go of miles. took the photo and marched through the forest miles followed behind me. we were going back to their house and the second we got there i threw open the door everyone was in the living room. my brother was so mad. he was yelling at mike. argyle looked kin of uncomfortable. i saw Boris. he smiled.

he walked closer t om e and he looked happy to see me. i slapped him. everyone was surprised. boris was shocked.

"wvat the fuck." boris said clutching his cheek. i glared at him.

"YOU KISED THEO!" everyon3e was surprised and they looked at boris. boris looked surprised.

"wvat no." boris said shocked. i just wiped a tear and threw the photo at him he caught it looked at me then to miles and he started to try and explain but i just started walking away. i walked over to miles and I hugged him, crying into his shoulder and he held me. Boris tried to explain.

within seconds everyone started to yell at each other and i kin of felt bad. i knew it was all my fault. i wiped my tears trying to calm down as miles held me. all of a sudden boris snatched me from miles and ran to the bathrooom closing the door locking it. i started to scream and tell him to let me go and everyone was trying to open the door but it was locked.

" i didnt cheat on you, this was tacken when we were still dating , we broke up 4 monthes ago. this was tacken 6 monthes ago. okay. but we arent even... why." boris looked confuseed.

"... No reason... I'm sorry I over reacted. I don't know what's wrong with me." Silence was all left in the room. His eyes softened and he reached out to grab me, I flinched for some reason I wasn't scared just shocked. He hugged me and I started to cry. All of a sudden the door flew open. Everyone looked at us. Everyone started to yell and I felt so annoyed and mad. My head was in so much pain, I couldn't handle it.

"Can you guys please shut up!" i yelled i was shocked at my own words he was about to say something but i started to hyperventalate and i couldnt breathe it felt like the walls were going to swollow me up. I pushed past Boris and ran past everyone and I got outside. Argyle ran out with Johnathon. So did nancy Mike miles and Tyler. Johnathon opened the car door of argyle's van. I hopped in quickly.  Argyle got in the driver seat and Johnathon kissed Nancy on the cheek getting in the passenger seat and we drove home. I tried not to cry. Once we got home Johnathon spoke.

"What the fuck happened?" He said concerned and it all spilled out.

" Me and Boris started to fake date because Mike was ignoring me and then I caught feeling sand we started to actually date like kissing and stuff but Mike was acting like a dick so I confronted him and he said I was a bad friend. So I yelled at him ran out and miles followed me told me Boris was cheating but he didn't really and he asked me why and I said that I didn't know.. but after I felt like I couldn't breathe like I felt like I was gonna die."  I said as tears flowed down my face and I could feel so much pity in the air.

"Let's... Let's just go home." Johnathon spoke.

That was weeks ago. It was nearly Christmas and we had decided that I wouldn't go to the wheelers that year. Which I was torn between my emotions were so raw at the moment and I don't want to create a scene as the one I did weeks earlier but as I satere out the window. Snow falling down from the sky kids laughing and Johnathon music blasting from his room. I was in a state of calm. All of a sudden I felt this sting in my heart as I thought about how I wouldn't be able to see Boris. But as I thought that my mom called me to dinner and all of a sudden I froze and I saw him...

My older brother and his. Lose friend sitting right next to Johnathon and argyle. I froze and my mother gave the warmest of smiles.

"Aren't you glad Zacks home for Christmas break." My mother said eccentric

And the truth was that, no. I wasn't glad that he was home. My brother Zack is from my dad's side but . My mom had taken custody of him at the age of 10. I was only 13 when he left for college so I had a lot of stuff happening for me to care about my shitty brother leaving for college. I rolled my eyes staring at his friend. I felt sick.

Patrick....

"oh they will be staying for 2 weeks." Joyce chimed. I was pissed.

I know short sorry. I had finals this week.... well I still do... Lol. Uh new characters, Kinda anyways I'll see y'all next week. Or this week :)