alone

chapter 6

the silence was deafening but i didn't care, boris was giving me this look and i was slightly shocked with my own answer. Johnathon could tell that i was uncomfortable so he tried to change the subject.

"guys so uh argyle got a promotion." Johnathon said grabbing argyle shoulder. Everyone took a second to look at him. Joyce's face softened.

"Oh that's great honey, I'm so proud." Joyce said with a warm smile everyone else just nodded. I looked at argyle as he slightly flushed up. I could tell that he was embarrassed. I gave him a warm smile then followed by a thumbs up. He smiled at me.

"Thanks byers." He said starting to eat. Zack must have felt a urge to share to.

"I got a new car." He said glaring at his plate.

"Oh, that's cool." Joyce said not as warm. She was mad at him. I sighed out loud I was done.

I looked at Boris and he nodded. I excused us before I pulled him back to my room once we got in there I turned closed the door and locked it. I turned to him and pounced on him. We landed on the bed I started to kiss him.

He kissed back were were kissing an tell i heard a small knock. I groaned out loud pissed off. I stomped over to my door opening it pissed off it was Jane I softened.

"Yes Jane. Are you okay." I ask she sighed and moved to the left and Mike is standing behind her. I groan today is so shitty.

"Hey Mike." I force a smile. He looks guilty.

"I wanted to apologize. For everything... I've been a really shitty friend and the worst best friend...." He says as tears pile up in his eyes and they slowly fall down his cheek silence fills the air.

My body moved. I didn't know why, but it did. I rushed over to him and engulfed him in a hug. His tears fell into my shoulder making my shirt damp. 

Maybe it was because the only thing that I had ever wanted for the past year or two was for him to apologize and act like a proper friend.

So the second that he actually acknowledged my feelings I broke. Tears were streaming down my face as I watched him cry on my shoulder, I looked past him and I saw Boris sitting on my bed he looked devastated. 

Maybe he saw the look on my face. Maybe he realized that the only real reason that he and me ever dated was because I was interested in his brother.

He gave a guilty look then look down to the floor, as I was hugging Mike I could hear footsteps towards us. I look over Boris as he was walking over, I have expected him to hug us but he didn't. 

He pushed past both of us ignoring Jane who tried to reason with him and ask him if he was okay. But it didn't help he rushed off, I didn't know what to do in that moment.

My 12-year-long best friend was crying on my shoulder, my current boyfriend storming off. 

I didn't know what to do I really didn't my mind went blank, I was ready to let go of him but he didn't budge and I knew that he needed the hug more than I needed to go race after Boris. Was he okay, I think.

I tried to talk but my mind goes blank, words don't fall out like the usually would. I try to think of anything anything at all just to calm him down just to say it's okay. 

But nothing like that comes out just a deep sigh. He noticed my reaction and he's slightly let go just enough so that he could speak.

"I'm sorry." The words felt like a symphony. A fountain of youth something I would never have believed to come out of his mouth. Sorry. 

The word felt magical unique I did never heard him say sorry before yes he has apologized but never saying sorry. He tries to reason until you his side and give you a level of understanding or make up an excuse as to why he was in the right and you were in the wrong. Never actually apologizing. I tear up. He soon let's go off me.

I look around to my horror I see my sister standing at the door her eyes watery. Just like I had realized something days prior she realized it too. Maybe Mike wasn't as straight as he always thought he was.

He looks me in the eye, and as if my thoughts had been turned into words he looks down guilt filling his face. I try to speak once again but this time he speaks up saying my thoughts.

"I'm sorry jane. I really am, ever since I was younger I knew I knew that there was something different about me, and when I saw you in the woods and I thought- I thought that you could have been everything to me." He says. Jane pauses and engulfs him in a hug.

"I know, I've known for months now. I knew that you never loved me, well not in the way that I loved you." She spoke. She looked quite happy given the current situation.

I slowly drifted off out of the room and towards the door the one that Boris had just ran out of. But as I opened it something tugged on my arm, I turned to look at what it was. And to my shock it was Johnathan. He had tears rolled up in his eyes, and he looked as if he had seen a ghost.

It was about to ask but for the fifth time today I've been interrupted. But this interruption was one that I was happy for.

"Let's go find your boyfriend." Jonathan said wiping the water from his eyes. I gave him a smile. And we both flee out the door. His keys get tossed up into the air as he was about to grab them argyle snatched him out of the air. 

I look shocked so did my brother. Argyle gave us a warm smile and I can tell that for the first time he wasn't high out of his mind. I've never seen argyle this way so I didn't know how his personality would have been and I was quite shocked.

He was just the same. Happy-go-lucky and slurring a few words.

"What's up Brooskies, where ya headed?" He asks as if he already didn't know. Jonathan nods towards me and they both have a level of understanding one that I hadn't seen from the two in a while. Argyle grabs the keys from his jacket his keys. Tosses Jonathan's keys back to him and we head to his van hopping in with a smile we head down the road towards where boris's house was.

As we were driving I could tell that my brother was in a horrible mood one that I hadn't seen ever since I had been found. Want to fear. Was he scared of what had just happened was he scared of my brother, of patrick. Maybe something with nancy, but I never really know what's going on in his mind anymore.

And with that thought as if he had read my mind he spoke once again.

"Well, I guess nancy gonna be shocked to see me." He says with a serious tone. And I could only guess what had happened between the two. I was ready to ask but I kept my mouth shut not wanting to intrude.

"I broke up with her." I was shocked to say the least. She had been going for her for so many years and they'd been dating for 3 years straight how could it end so suddenly and why did he break up with her. He spoke once again.

"I know that she didn't like me anymore she had fallen for Steve once again. I just hope that one day she'll realize but I did truly love her. And I only did what I had to do to make her happy in the end." He said, I'm pretty sure my brother was high. But not from weed from something else maybe happiness maybe remorse. I couldn't tell but we were soon confronted with the wheeler's house staring at us as if the house was human.

The fighting had gotten too bad. I needed to fix things fix things with everyone with boris, with miles with Mike with Jane my brother and everybody else who I had wronged. Because to put it simply all of the actions that had occurred were all my fault.