My famous dad

Anxiety overload

Anything involving people I don't know I hate it I'm okay with Ryan because we're met each other but stranger are horrible

Buddy and me been staying at the orphanage for past few days now because I'm still an orphan

Knock knock

Hi I said

You look like hell Jessica said

Insomnia is bitch I said

Your have your first press interview with Ryan Jessica said

Yeah I said

Why aren't you excited Jessica said

Isn't the movie not out yet I said

No it not but get out of bed Jessica said

Depression had settle in and blood settled in

I can't I said

Why are you begin Humbug Jessica said

Because everything is hell I said

Come on Jessica said pulling clothes out

I went to the bathroom and I got dressed

Gorgeous Jessica said beaming

Even happiness isn't shaking me off

Hey breakfast is ready The headmaster said

I'm having crippling anxiety right now I said

Grab Buddy let's go Jessica said

We walked to the cafeteria and Ryan is sitting there

Why so he here? I said

The interview happening here Jessica said

Yeah I'm good I said

Your coming here Jessica said sounding like nagging mom

I sat next to Ryan

Buddy laid beneath me but he trained not to eat food

Alright we're here with the new film Forever Hone can we have an insight where it about The interviewer said

About an girl adoption the up and down of adoption and orphanage I said

How was to film with Ryan Gosling? The interviewer asked

It was awesome I said

I was done with my part and I went to bed

Get out of bed Jessica said

I can't eat I can't breathe I can't do anything I said

I slept for the next several hours

The next day or premiere day of my film

Jessica arrived with a damn production hair and makeup

We made Buddy a tuxedo

I got glam up and took photo shoot

Only Buddy I've gotten thousand of thousands of photos of myself

We out Buddy vest on

Are you ready? Jessica asked

I deep breathe before entering the car

The dress was two small and scratchy

Buddy could tell I was anxiety filled

Oh by the way you have speak to Jessica said

And you couldn't tell me sooner I said

Sorry Jessica said

My anxiety was through the roof and my stomach was rumbling I get extreme diarrhea and I can't eat at all. I have to walk on the red carpet like nothing is wrong

How am I gonna do this? I said

Smile act nothing wrong Jessica said

We arrived and my anxiety was rocket through the roof

We got our and I walked the red carpet

Get the dog out of the way they yelled

I felt weird so I froze Ryan walked back to me

Ready Ryan said

He took my hand we walked to the "photo center"

Buddy sat down and laid on my feet

What your dog name? A reporter said

Buddy I said

Why do you have it? The reporter said

I just walked away and rolled my eyes

I found the first bathroom I found and I had complete utter breakdown tears streaming down my face I was hot sweaty having panic attack

What are you doing sweetie? Jessica said

I can't do this I'm only ten years old this is too much I said

Why did you become an actor Jessica said wiping my tears

I shit my pants I said

Eww what Jessica said

I had to fart and it came out I said

Your like kid Jessica said

I am kid with anxiety and depression without a mom or a dad I said

We went into the theatre

Before we begin Sarah would like to say some words Kody said

I stood in front of the microphone and my sheet of paper was dissolved due to my sweaty hand but I told myself to speak from my heart

This movie will show the pain of fostering children endure from abuse suicidal ideation Im orphan or hard to live in world doesn't understand I said sitting back down

Buddy bark in agreement

Thanks Buddy for that Kody said making everyone laugh

I watched the movie tears streaming down my face

3rd POV
Ryan had tears in his eyes

Kody was crying

The enter theatre was crying

Sarah POV
After the movie I asked to go to my orphanage and slept for rest of the night. My face dug in Buddy side to compressed me tightly

The headmaster walked to give me my medicine

Hey The headmaster said

What I cried

She handed me piece of paper it adoption form

I'm getting adopted I said literally screaming

Read by who? The headmaster said

Ryan Gosling I said breathlessly

Jessica will be here tomorrow at 8am to take you to his house The headmaster said

I shook my head and now I'm anxiety excited

I started packing my room

Then I cleaned all night I couldn't sleep and OCD was up and active

I sat against the wall with Buddy snuggling into me

Remember the pain I felt now that I'm finally leaving this place