My famous dad

On national television

I open the door and Jessica had the biggest smile ever and was jumping like kid on Christmas morning

I got the biggest new ever are you ready Jessica said

Yes I said

Your gonna be on the Ellen show and Kelly Clarkson Jessica said

I about fainted

Both of us? I asked

Yes Jessica said

Omg I said

On the Kelly show Mark Walberg and Octave Spencer will be there too Jessica said

When I said

Tomorrow for Ellen then the next Kelly Clarkson Jessica said

Did you tell to announce me Sarah No name I said

Why? Ryan said

There reason it symbolic I said

Okay Ryan said concerned

It smells really good in here who cooked Jessica said

Who do you think? I said

You Jessica said

This morning he burnt cereal I don't know how he did it but he did it I said

Your wardrobe is upstairs and all ready for you Jessica said

Okay I said

We both when to bed and woke at 5am to get ready I choose my dress for it

A limo drove to Ellen set and Buddy was aloud to go to

By the way JFK was shot because his car didn't have roof I said

We got our headed to our dressing room

Ellen POV
Our next guests are amazing talk a look at this I said

Please welcome Ryan Gosling and Sarah No name and Buddy I said

Omg Sarah said

Hi No name I said

There reason Sarah said

Hi Ryan I said

Sarah POV
Sarah your starring in movie that has special connection what that connection? Ellen asked me

The character is orphaned and I was orphaned I said

How long were in the orphanage? Ellen ask me

Too long I said

Why no name? Ellen asked

I stood up walked in to the audience

Who has ever adopted a child? I asked

Hi what your name? I asked

Abby She said

So Abby when adopted your daughter did you change her last name? I asked d

Yes Abby said

Did you ask why she didn't like her biological last name? I asked

I haven't No Abby said

So for me my last name was Sarah Brooke bur I had some negative conation with trauma I endured so I changed to No name no really I didn't I said

What is your last name? Ellen asked me

Gosling I said

Ryan POV
How was it getting to adopt Sarah? Ellen asked me

It was hard but after filming the movie had connection I knew I had to do something I said

I'm sorry why is there dog licking my table? Ellen said

It my service dog when I was orphaned I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety so Buddy is my service animal Sarah said

Sarah POV
What your favorite hobby? Ellen asked me

Singing I said

Who your favorite artist? Ellen said

Katy Perry I said

You see that piano go play it for us Ellen said

Okay I said

I walked to it and started singing and crying

Ryan ran up to me placing and arm around me

We will be right back Ellen said

Skip to the next day
Kelly Clarkson Show
10am

Kelly POV
I'm joined by Mark Octavious and Ryan now. Are next guest is only ten years who lived through more things then the average adult does. Please welcome Sarah Gosling I said

Oh Sarah give me hug I said

Hi guys Sarah said

We got to unpack but how is to have Ryan as dad I asked

Oh your gonna make me cry before Ryan adopted me I didn't love myself I hated myself I blamed for everything. But Ryan showed that now matter if I fail or need to cry he will always be there Sarah said wiping tears away

So what the moving about I asked

It about newly widowed who last his wife to drug overdose. He doesn't seem purpose in life. His brother were adopted he signs to be foster parents and he through everything. Then he adopted Olivia and it shows there emotional bond between father daughter even if blood not the same Ryan said

Sarah POV
Let's get your story how long were in the orphanage? Kelly asked

Seven years I said

What lead to this? Kelly said

My biological father was drug addict he abused me. My biological mother was a drug addict also. They decided to build a meth lab which exploded. My biological father was arrested two count drugs. My biological mother died from overdose. There client were abusive to they sexually abused me. My grandma got custody of me and then they lost ended in the orphanage I said

All in five years? Kelly said

Yes I said

How was the orphanage? Kelly said

Hell on earth it was extremely lonely and dark at times. You lost your identity practically. You don't feel loved you abused for smallest thing even. I said

Did anything good happen? Kelly asked me

I shallower hard and Ryan grabbed my hand

You want me to get Buddy Ryan asked me

Buddy was waiting for me Buddy laid beneath my feet

Yes one of the nurses who worked umm raped me and I became pregnant at just six years old I said

Did you have you go through with it? Kelly asked me

No I got an abortion I said

Let get from the trauma side of things are you singer? Kelly asked me

Yes I am I said

I can assure to you Ryan said

The many times he had yell at me to be quiet is a lot I said

What your song to sing when your having terrible day? Kelly asked me

Queen Dear Evan Hansen etc I said

Actually on good day she'll blast Disney songs and on her bad day her anxiety filled days she'll blast Dear Evan Hansen and Queen Ryan said

I tried hiding my face

You like when you say that why? Kelly asked me

He gets me he really gets me I said

After the talk show I was emotionally exhausted. We got home I found a thing frosting

That's not very healthy Ryan said

I don't really care I said

For the rest of the night I slept or cried myself to sleep or I paced back and forth in anxiety afraid what the media would say