Chay, sweet little, innocent Porchay Kittisawasd, has his whole life turned 180 degrees when he heard the magic word, "You are pregnant". He is indeed screwed. Grab your popcorn and drinks, it is going to be one hell of a ride. Let's look into the l...
Kim went to his oldest brother's room, he knows that he must have the answer to Kim's question, Tankhun is really close with Chay and babies him more than Porsche. He saw his brother crying, surrounded by mountains of wet tissues while watching a video of Chay playing with his brother and all the bodyguards, they were playing hide and seek. Chay looks so ethereal, so free, so happy, so pure, Kim has taken all that from the younger boy, guilt has never been this thick on Kim and it sure slowly eating him up.
He slowly approached his brother.
Tankhun who noticed his brother in his bedroom teared up more.
Kimmmmm, look at my baby brother, he has left all of us, Tankhun dramatically blew his nose loudly into the tissue.
What? Kim's heart literally stopped beating for a second. What happened to his Chay, what happened to his baby?
What he meant is, Porchay went aboard, that's why he meant by Chay has left us, Pol said.
Why? Kim asked.
He went to Norway to further his studies and to be independent, I miss my baby Chay, Tankhun wept again.
I don't even know why he took that decision, he has been here for a few months, and those few months really meant a lot to me, he is literal sunshine. Why he wants to leave all of us behind, why now? He is such a golden retriever, I have not finished babying him. I want to show him loads of stuff, I want to have many boys' days out with him, of course, no alcohol involved, I want him to party with us, I want him to watch series with me, I miss my Chay Chay, Tankhun sobbed into his pillow.
Pol, Arm, should I move to Norway just to be near baby Chay? Should we buy a house there and live there till Chay finishes his studies? You know, I am going to fly to Norway now, I cannot bear this agony, Tankhun tried to get up but Pol and Arm stopped him from moving.
Master, he wants to be independent, he wants to find himself, even his overprotective brother let him go, he will be back soon. We need to give him space, that is what is best for Chay, and we need to respect his decision.
I still miss him, Takhun wept again.
Kim feels his heart drop. He took Chay for granted, yes he was the one who broke up with Chay to protect him from the danger of the mafia world. He is the one who broke Chay's heart, he shattered his lover's heart thinking that Chay will hate him and will keep a distance but never in his wildest dream he thought Chay will leave Thailand. He thought he can protect Chay from far as long as Chay lives near him even though not with him. Kim is willing to throw his love away in order to protect his loved one, he still loves Chay, he is still madly in love with Chay, Kim is suffering as well, at least Chay has his brother and even Kim's family members to cheer him up but Kim has no one, he used to have Chay by his side but he managed to make his one true love to leave his side. He thought if Chay is not near him, he is safe but it finally hits him that the 2 times Chay was in danger, Kim the one who managed to save him, not even his blood brother, Porsche can save Chay. It took him exactly 3 months to come to his sense, and he finally got his answer, no one can protect Chay as he does, Chay needs him and he needs Chay. Kim cannot believe that Chay was willing to leave his brother behind so he can be far away from Kim.
Kim drove his car at a high speed while tears ran down his cheeks. I love you...I love you Chay, more than myself, more than my music career if only I can say that to you. If only I was brave then and has some trust in my capabilities, that I can keep you safe and far from danger, this would not have happened, you would not be far away from me, we would have been cuddling now, you in my arms, safe and sound.
(Imagine Jeff's part of the song plays in Kim's stereo and it is basically raining and Kim is driving at high speed) This is KimChay's song y'all cause Kim will surely take a bullet for Chay...
He misses Chay so much, he misses his laughter, and he misses hugging and cuddling the younger lad whenever and wherever he wants. He misses being taken care of by Chay, and he misses his cooking. He misses the boy who only has eyes for him. He misses burying his face in Chay's neck and just basking in his smell and warmth when Kim had a bad day. he misses being treated with love, he misses coming home to Chay.
He stopped at his friend's bar and got wasted, he was never one who was deemed as the playboy like his second brother and he hardly touch hard liquor but today he chose to get wasted cause he finally can blame the pain in his heart due to his overconsumption of the hard liquor. The only one to who he made love is his sweet innocent Chay. Benzzz...Chay...chay, my beautiful, oh so sweet Chay..he...he...left me, I....I...love him more than anything...I don't deserve his love but I cannot stop myself from loving him.. you know.. Kim giggled, I scared off all the potential dates for Chay...I cannot stand anyone else touching what is mine...I am sure look like an asshole right...but...I don't care...Chay...he is mine...and...I am his...but....he....he...left me and went far....to...Norway...like...no way right...my Chay has sure grown..he wants to be independent...Sometimes, I hate to be a mafia heir..it is not cool as it sounds...sucks to be me...I can't even say I love you to my lover..I cannot say how much I adore and want him to be at my side 24/7 even though I know it is impossible...I am such a coward..I am scared Benz...I cannot even bear the thought of Chay getting hurt...I saved him from Tawan and that made me have several sleepless nights, to the point I was guarding like a damn dog near Chay's childhood house....I felt like a useless man, I am dangerous, Benz...there is no good being close to me...I don't deserve love, I don't deserve Chay...I don't deserve family...I don't deserve happiness, Kim chugged the scotch and sighed, his heart burns, most probably the alcohol, that's what Kim is telling himself...1 more...Kim said.
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No more Kim..your brothers will surely kill me. I do care about you, man, trust me things will get better, maybe not now but one day, trust me. I have seen how Chay looked at you, he needs time, once he is back, talk to him, he surely will understand, Benz said.
Kim nodded his head.
Benz, Kim's friend basically needs to remove Kim physically from the bar in fear of Kim dying of alcohol poisoning.
Big, Kim's bodyguard drove Kim to his apartment.
Chay...Chay...Phi sorry na....come back Chay...Kim mumbled.
Big sighed. The Kittisawasds do have the Theerapanyakuls wrapped around their pinky. Back then it was Kinn, now it is Kim.
So this is basically Kim's POV I guess, hope you enjoy this chapter, and stay tuned for the next chapter. Do leave your comment below. Have a nice day, peeps =).
