Kim's heart shattered, he nodded his head slowly and bit his lips, he can taste the familiar metallic taste. He can feel the sting on his lips but not as painful as the sting in his heart.
"I...I, uhmm", he cleared his throat. He can feel his throat drying up.
"I..I.need to go now, I have a meeting, I will take my leave now," Kim said and left without looking back and hearing Chay's reply.
Chay closed his eyes as he heard the door close shut.
"I am sorry P'Kim, I cannot let you break my heart once again, I need to be strong for our son, so please forgive me, let me be selfish this time around, let me be the one who breaks your heart this time for our happiness, please be happy with your girlfriend, I will try to move on even though it is hard", Chay thought while hot tears started to descend his cheeks.
"Please don't treat me gently, don't talk to me in that soft tone, don't look at me with that look in your eyes, like you still love me, don't treat our son so sweetly despite not knowing the fact that he is indeed yours, don't make it hard for me. Give me reasons to hate you so this stupid heart of mine can finally give up on you and our love. Let me hate you to the core till there is no coming back, till there is no hope, till there is no love, Chay said and sobbed.
Their baby is sleeping soundly in his arms without knowing the turmoil in his papa's mind and how heartbroken his daddy is right now.
Chay shifted the sleeping baby to his crib. Chay needs to calm himself down, he obviously not going to ruin his son's nap time with his sniffling. He needs to have a good cry and he is going to do it in the comfort of his own bed and room, his son always comes first, he needs his nap and he is going to get it. His baby had a long day so did Chay but as a father, his paternal instinct is really strong, he can only do other stuff after making sure his son is safe.
So, he looked at his sleeping son in the crib, brushed his silky hair and whispered "Eclipse, always remember, papa loves you". He leaned and kissed his son's forehead, his soft lips lingered on his son's forehead for a good minute. He smiled at the baby, closed the nursery door and threw his weak body on his bed. His body shook as he sobbed the pain away.
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