Our little Eclipse (Kimhan/Porchay, KimChay)

Sweet Saviour

                                                                 (Chay's POV during Kim's arrival)

Chay stared into nothingness. His eyes are red and swollen, his nose is red, his throat is dry and his tummy is empty as he hasn't eaten since his P'Kim departed from the main house. He has been crying nonstop for the past two days. He has been lying on this bed and didn't leave his room. He cannot stand looking at his baby. Eclipse is such a bittersweet reminder of his P'Kim, the older his baby gets, the more he looks like his daddy. Yes, it is getting obvious who his other father is as Eclipse is indeed a spitting image of the singer. Eclipse cries for his papa and daddy day long and night yet it still doesn't make Chay get up and calm his hysteric baby. Eclipse's tears are Chay's kryptonite, it is Chay's weakness and they always spur Chay to move and calm his baby but this time around, it is driving Chay crazy, he never had postpartum depression but Chay may be suffering from it now. He is basically in a deep depression and he can't even force himself to change for his baby, his blood. Chay feels like an utter failure and he just wants to run away but his baby needs him, his sweet munchkin needs Chay. The younger man curled into himself, hot tears gliding down his gaunt cheeks and he worried his swollen lips against his sharp teeth, making those plump lips angry red.

Yesterday, Lisa left Eclipse in his crib. She pulled the crib and placed it near Chay's bed, in hopes it would spur Chay into action, to wake from his self-wallowing and put his son as his priority like he always does but something changed. Chay closed his eyes tightly when Eclipse started to wail at the tops of his lungs as it was near his feeding time and Chay had stopped feeding the baby and taking care of him since his daddy left. The baby missed his daddy so dearly. Chay only took a bath after Porsche pushed Porchay into the shower and opened it, letting the warm water hit his still-clothed body. Chay is a living corpse, no one heard his voice or seen him outside his room. It is worrying everyone, it seems like Chay has lost his purpose in life, even his son cannot pull Chay from his misery, in fact making Chay fall into a deep depression when he hears his son's heart-wrenching cries, seeking for his papa's comfort, care and attention. All Chay can do is lay on his bed and fall into a deep trance, shielding his own heart from breaking and pretending that he is all alone.