I've Had Enough

Part 6

Katsuki's POV :

" JUST SHUT UP"
I slammed the door behind me and escaped . My mother has been sobbing all day that I can't bear it anymore, it's so disturbing. She has no idea how much harm she's doing to me. Whenever this day comes, she explodes in tears as if it is repeated, so I live it again with all its painful details which inflicted on me the torment of a conscience that irritates me.
Today is aunt Inko's death anniversary.. and..deku's too. It's raining really heavy outside , a good thing though . I just walked away from home , just escaped the hell of self blame I was feeling , and kept walking indefinitely. My legs stopped when they reached their destiny , and once I looked up I realized where I was.. right infront of Deku's house.

     Tch.. I turned to walk away, but something's is pulling me back. I took another look and decided to step inside. The place was dark and creepy , almost everything is covered with dust, and has a strange aura. I got in through a window on the second floor, and deku's room was the first thing my eyes caught. I approached the door handle hesitantly, then cracked the door open to his room. The walls were practically covered with Almight posters , the room was neat , everything was in place..but him.
"fuck"
The resentment was eating me on the inside, it was the fact that he died on that specific day..the day I told him to kill himself..the day that sits on the throne of my heart, takes control of my soul, and tortures it to death.

     I proceeded towards his desk , sat down , and the memories of our childhood took me back in time..I snapped out of it, and distracted myself by looking into his drawers. I feel kinda like a stalker, but I really need to get past those irritating feelings thus I've to face reality in a way or another. I was looking through his textbooks , his class notes, and his aced exams..was deku THAT smart !! It's just that teachers never praised him, or claimed his hard work .. so we all asumed he was just trash..a dumb quirckless boy .. yeah .. who scarred my soul for life.
I then saw the notebooks on the shelf, there were a bunch of them. I extended my hand to grab , but accidentally pushed the others and made a mess. I  crouched down to grab them.. but.. what the hell are these..
      I thought they were school notebooks or something , but these were his hero analysis . To my surprise, he's pretty good at analyzing .. the pro heroes were all exposed in these. I sat right there reading them one after another , till my eyes fell on a burned notebook with cockled pages .. the one I burned .. when I opened it a usb fell into my lap ! I stuffed it in my pocket and decided to go.

     I had enough for today, went out the way I came , and headed straight home and into my room . I resent going there, since I don't feel any better rather worse .

Hey there! Sorry for the late snd short update , but it's exam season , wish me luck.
However, I have new ideas and interesting events regarding this plot, so stay tuned ;)