Amnesia

Harry

Stella texts me telling me she wants me back but I ignore her texts. It's not just one text it's several. I finally block her number so she can't text me anymore.

"Harry!" My mum calls from the front door. "You've got company."

I immediately smile hoping it's Louis even though we have a day planned in three days for he and Zayn to come by for dinner. I'm ready to see him, it's been four days since I've seen him.

"Hey Harry," Niall says when he enters my living room.

Niall is a nice surprise. He's just what I need to take my mind off Louis who seems to be consuming my every thought.

"Hey Niall," I say and smile at him. "How are you mate?"

"Good, good," he says and sits on the sofa next to me. "I wanted to come and see how you're doing since I was in town."

"I'm doing alright," I say. "Been better, ya know?"

"Yeah," he says with a small smile.

"Why didn't you tell me about Zayn and Louis?" I ask him out of nowhere.

He's surprised by my question. "They wanted to keep it a secret," Niall says but he's jittery.

"How long have they been...?" I can't even finish my thought. I can't say dating when it's Louis with someone else.

"Not long," he says. "They said it just sorta happened. They've always been best friends but had lost contact then something else happened with them when Zayn came back around. Liam and I were quite shocked."

"I imagine," I tell him. "They're happy though?"

"Seem to be," Niall says. "I know it's hard for you but just give it all some time. Louis was your first love and you were his. But you're both so dumb sometimes."

"I love him Niall," I admit. "I don't remember much but that I know. I love Louis and I feel like I always have."

"You have," he tells me. "I'm sure he and Zayn won't last. Don't ask why but that's just how I feel."

The thought of Louis with someone else hurts deep down. "Would it be wrong of me to say I hope it doesn't?" I'm not proud of the feelings I'm feeling and it seems out of character for me to wish for two people to break up.

"Not at all," Niall chuckles. "If you love him then maybe you should just make a move on him and show him."

"He's got a boyfriend Niall," I say. "I can't do that to Zayn."

Niall shrugs. "I would," he says. "I mean if I was gay and I wanted Louis I would just go for it."

I laugh. "You would huh?"

"Absolutely," he says. "What do you have to lose? Think about it. You have history with him so why not just ya know kiss him or something. I'm not saying to fuck him. I'm saying to kiss him a little. If he kisses you back you'll know if you have a chance with him or not."

Niall is blunt and completely unapologetic about it and I love it.

"Hmm," I hum seriously considering it. "They're coming to dinner on Friday so maybe I'll do just that."

"I'm not condoning cheating Harry," Niall says. "I just don't think he's over you."

"Is Louis a cheater?" I ask. Maybe that's why we aren't together anymore. Had he cheated on me?

"He's not," Niall says. "He would never have cheated on you."

"Ok," I say. Well I guess he didn't cheat on me. "Do you know why we broke up? Did I cheat on him?"