Disclaimer: This is my first time writing a book lol ...Idek what I'm doing. 😂
I'm not a professional writer, these are just thoughts and ideas in my head.
description needs work- u should just read the story 😃✨
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Essence is just tryin...
Have not proofread❤️❤️ Also this part may contain some triggers...
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I sighed to myself watching my friend and her bf as they held my nieces.
It's been such a long ass week, but seeing this and being with my family made me feel a little better.
I can't believe I almost didn't make in time for the birth of the twins because of Damir's trifling ass. Turns out Damir wasn't who I thought he was.
I decided I would give him a shot at a relationship with me because he was persistent with me and always paid attention to what I liked. He wasn't overly possessive either... well from what I saw before things went downhill.
Apparently, the nigga was still feeling some type of way about me and Mickey. i guess he suspected something was still going on wit us and I caught him going through my phone.
He read some old text messages and saw some lingerie pics I sent to mick a while back.
And we got into an argument about trust and shit. He felt that i lied to him about my relationship with Mickey, but I don't believe anything that nigga said.
I think he was just pissed I never sent pics like that to him. The fact that I refused to send him pics when we tried to sext one time only pissed him off more. The nigga just had to bring up the fact that I did it for Mickey and not him.
His ass was extremely insecure and he was too slow to realize, that I didn't trust him fully like i did mick.
I don't normally send risqué pics to dudes, partially bc they dtm and I also have a couple lingerie pics on insta advertising my brand— and that's all they finna get. Not to little and not too much.
That's besides the point. Ultimately, my gut was right on not to fully trust him, these niggas ain't shit...
He basically said I was a hoe and not doing my part in the relationship in regards to intimacy. He felt I lied to him and he got an undeserved ass beating. In turn, he decided Take his anger out on me. That nigga did some unspeakable things to me.
The red flags were clear as day and ignored them. Although he was persistent with me, I'm just now realizing that that persistence was also begging. He repeatedly asked for a relationship after I said no, the first time, because I felt we was better as friends. I should have stuck with my gut.
My people pleasing ass.
It was a mess just like all my other relationships and that's why I don't do relationship shit. ~~~~
I still can't believe I told them I was jumped.
"Imma go get everyone" Chandra said with excitement before walking out of the room.
"Nomi what happened to you? And tell the truth this time." Ess said in a stern tone while still cooing at Najah who was in her arms.
Essence is something serious. She will not stop until she sees her people happy and striving. It's a blessing and a curse. You can't get passed her without her knowing somethings wrong, and she won't stop until she figures out a resolution. This helping nonstop is what gets her in a bind and she becomes stressed as well. It's just a cycle of unhappiness... so it's best to not tell her everything all the time.
