Love After Marriage

12

Julian

What the hell are you talking about" I scream at my husband who was a bit taken aback by the robust. I never disagree with anything he was so he was a bit surprised that I'm shouting at him

I'm telling you now right? He says shrugging. Who is this man everyday he keeps on bringing his bad side

And you have finally made a decision with yourself. You fucking fix an appointment? Bewildered at this man I called husband

What do you want me to do, sit down and allow everything I have worked for taken away from me cause you couldn't bear a child no more huh? He said reminding me of my inability to give birth again. I mean he does it often so it wasn't a surprise for me

So you decided to go to hospital, get a woman who will give you what I couldn't huh and you can't even man up to tell me beforehand huh" I was fuming and God help me let me not act before thinking

I didn't think you gonna have any problem with it" who is the guy kidding

We are not doing it" I said with final determination in my voice.

What? he said surprised at me. Well I'm surprised too so I guess we are both allowed to be surprised

You heard what I say. Im surprised that I'm challenging him. I hope I'm not going to regret this later

You don't get a say in what I do" he says looking deadly but that wasn't scaring me today. I'm beyond the stage of being scared off with how much anger that's vibrating in me

Fine then I leave the house" I say knowing that's a big blow to him. His brother is going to love it knowing he has something to talk about that he can't keep his marriage or have any child at the same time.

You are not leaving this house. I made you what you are, so you dare not make me regret it"

I laughed for the first time at him thinking what a type of douchebag I married "then watch me" I said going up to my room to take the necessary things I will need for few days. Part of me was wishing that he will stop me and tell me not to go ahead with it. I finished packing, though I have no idea where I will be sleeping this night but I wasn't going to change my mind. He's playing going to be more convinced that without him, I have no where else.

I took my back down to see he already left. He doesn't care. I wondered if he ever love me, I mean you can't hate someone you ones love this much. A tear slipped down, I wiped it off leaving the hell I called house.

I looked around Wondering yet again if I should continue with this idea but I know that's the only thing I can do, I should do. I stepped out determine if he doesn't want me again I shouldn't force him.

I walked for hours with no idea of where I am going. I didn't know who to call except for Claire. I didn't want to feel like a burden to her, I mean we just recently gotten to know ourselves but if I don't, it means I will be sleeping in a hotel or on the road and I choose neither

Taking a deep breath, I dialed her line cussing myself for not planning well before leaving the house. I can't go back now.

She picked on the first ring "Hey" she answered sounding breathless

Hi uh - are you busy

Yeah just came back from the gym"

Oh that's cool later" deciding to change my mind on asking her for help

Hey what's wrong, I mean you must have a good reason for calling me" I sighed not knowing what else to say. I told her that I'm looking for where to sleep, something happened though I didn't really get into the details well

She told me I should waist, she's gonna come get to me. I was a little relieved but at the same time worried that I'm a burden to her. She came thirty minutes later with her car and picked me up.

We drove to one apartment which she says she normally comes to if she needs space or something. The place was good neat and nice to be left alone. I feel terrible regretting my decision. I knew I was acting without thinking but he got me so provoked

So what do you think?

It's nice, more than what I deserve and I'm so sorry that I'm bringing my baggage into your life"

Hey it's fine and I'm always here for you" she says resting her hand on my shoulder giving it a little squeeze. I felt some of my burden and anger lifted

Thank you

You care to tell me what happened" she asks  

I went to the sofa, sitting down while she joined me. I told her what happened. She consoled me tubing get hands on my shoulder down to my hand. She hasn't idea how the thing is affecting me.

I'm sorry there's nothing available in the fridge, been long I came here and I don't like to buy groceries. I'm gonna go out and get you something

I can come with you" I say though I was already tired and I needed a good amount of sleep

Hey it's no problem just settle In let me run and get you something. It won't take long"she says

How about Jason?

Dropped him off to my friends house" she says getting up to get her stuff. I will see you later then. I nodded getting up too following her to the door. I closed the door after she left. Deciding to take a quick shower and rest