tw: body-shaming, specifically online body-shaming, alcoholism
I had talked to Tom's mates for only about 5 minutes, I'm polite towards my brother. I know he would get upset if I would've stayed longer. As I looked around his room, I saw a L'manberg flag. I loved watching his lore, I hope DSMP 2 will be just as enticing.
I had tweeted out that I will stream in 5 minutes, so I started setting up my twitch. I wasn't going to change the OBS one bit, but his had a subgoal up, which I just removed. This was gonna be a Minecraft just chatting stream, nothing out of the ordinary from my usual streams.
"Hi! Oh god, this feels so unreal. I haven't streamed in such a long time!" I say elongating the "e". "How are all of you? Also yes, I'm at Tom's at the moment. He wanted to see me after my trip to Germany, so I just came over to stay the night." I knew some people would say that we're cute together, but I'll just ignore it. There is like a 6 year difference as well, I don't get chat.
"Guys, I'm literally TWENTY. FOUR. This child is only EIGHTEEN. Ya'll need to grow a few braincells, for fucks sake. I've never understood the shipping us, I literally see him as my baby brother. And again, SIX YEAR AGE DIFFERENCE? No thank you!" I say as I give a sarcastic and angry smile to the camera.
I look over to chat and my heart drops.
user1: youve gained so much weight, lol fatty
user2: bro, what did you eat in germany? looks like you gained 100lbs
user3: your cheeks are so chubby, omg ew
Hate comes with the territory of being a content creator, I know that, but it stings to hear remarks about something you've been battling with every single day since like 11. "Umm... so... I think I might have to end stream extra early today, I think Tom needs something, bye!" I say holding one hand up to my face and the other on the end stream button. Fuck this.
As soon as the stream ends, I cry. I ball my eyes out. I'm not the type of person to cry often. I usually get drunk instead of crying, which is an unhealthy coping mechanism, but hey! It's better than what I've done before.
I walk out of his room quietly, stopping by my room to see Tom still asleep. So peaceful. I walk downstairs to the kitchen. When I look into the living room, mum has fallen asleep watching TV. I go to turn it off, and I put a blanket on her as well. It's fucking cold in here.
As I walk back into the kitchen, I find my 2 favourite items. A bottle of coke and some whiskey. My favourite simple drink happens to be a screwdriver, so thats what I'm drinking tonight. I get a glass from the cupboard and start making my drink. I always add lime juice to my screwdrivers. It adds a nice fancy touch.
When my drink is done, I grab the 2 bottles in one hand, and my drink in the other. I walk back upstairs, and almost walk into my room before seeing Tom asleep. I can't get hammered, he'll be disappointed. I sit down at his desk and put everything down. I put his headset back on and decide to just watch "Brooklyn 99" and drink for the rest of the night.
Aimee recommended it to me, and I'm so glad he did, because I love this show.
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"What the fuck- Y/N! WAKE THE FUCK UP!" I hear and open my eyes. I must've gotten stupid drunk, because for a second I thought I saw Tom Holland waking me up, but no. It was Tom, but not Holland.
"Oh shit, what time is it?" I ask him trying to not explode due to my massive headache. I know what I did, I can recall every event of last night, but of course it's foggy. I know I watched my show for about an hour, then watched youtube and then... I think I got on a call with Niki and just talked.
"It's like 3pm, mate! What the actual fuck, did you really get drunk your first night here?" Tom looks at me with anger in his eyes, which after a second turns into sorrow. Pity, almost. I realise that there are tears rolling down my eyes, my mouth gasping for air as I've covered it with my hand. I feel like a horrible sister.
"I'm so- sorry, T- Tom... I... I just... my stream..." I say as I curl up into a ball laying on my side with my head deep in the pillow along with my hands cupping my face. I can feel 2 bottles by my back, both glass. How much did I fucking drink, like, what? I need to get a therapist. I'm so close to being a flat out alcoholic.
"What about your stream, Y/n?" he says sitting down on the edge of the bed and rubbing circles on my back. He's the greatest brother anyone could ever ask for. Ever. "I... I gained weight in Germany... people said it's very noticeable... VERY..." I started crying even more. I shouldn't have told Tom. I usually deal with this shit on my own.
"What the fuck? Y/n. You taught me that hate is a part of content creation you should ignore. Where has that rule gone? Apply it to yourself, you hypocritical dumbass." Tom says with a joking smirk as he stares at me and my door periodically. "Also, just so you know, I think you look stunning. Don't listen to haters, you're the one with 8 million subs after all."
I just looked at him with a smile, tears still running down my cheeks. "Thanks, prick. I raised you well." I say as I try to get up. I see that the bottles next to be were whiskey and beer. The whiskey wasn't empty, thank fuck, but the beer was, so was the coke. "Sorry, Tom. I know I disappointed you, I know. I could see it in your eyes when you woke me up." I say not being able to look him in the eyes.
"It's... I don't want you to be like dad, you know? An alcoholic, a nightmare to deal with, a bother, a borderline abuser. You're none of those... but I'm scared you'll become either." Tom says looking at me with teary eyes. I feel my head grow a migraine to accompany my normal hangover and my guilt growing.
I fucking hate this.
"I love you, Tom.
I'm really fucking sorry for being your alcoholic sister."
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yes, y/n is sort of based on me.
also, alcohol is bad, dont drink. also, screwdrivers are such an amazing drink, fr.
for legal reasons, im not a minor ;]
no but seriously dont drink, it ruins lives, including mine. being a borderline alcoholic with an alcoholic parent is my story, and it sucks so i encourage no one to drink. this is just a silly little book.
(also, dw, wilbur x y/n will start soon, i just didnt want it to be very abrupt)
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