Heartstopper one shots

the first time...

TW: SMUT

Charlies pov:

Nick and I had talked about taking it to the next level in our relationship, but we never really ended up 'doing it ' I'm sure that I am ready, but I don't know if nick is ready, but Nick has invited me over after school, he has also said that his mum was gone so we had the house to ourselves.

Nicks pov:

I don't think anyone can understand how much I WANT Charlie, I wanted to take it a step further in our relationship but I was too scared to ask him in case I made him uncomfortable or something, but I did invite him over and my mums out of town so we have the house to ourselves, Charlie and I all alone.... it made me blush just thinking about it, I suddenly snap out of it when someone taps me on the shoulder " come on mate we've got rugby practice"I hear harry green say I quickly get up from my chair and grab my kit and head for the changing rooms.

Charlies pov:

I finally hear the last bell ring I get up from my seat and head to my locker to put my books away, I know nicks at rugby practice so that's where I head, I know it sounds weird but I love watching nick practice, it made me blush just thinking about it, and whenever he wins the game he runs over to me and lifts me in the air like a trophy

I sit down on the benches and watch nick play, It was only after he scored a few trys did he notice me he looks over at me and gives me a lopsided smile that made me melt inside, I smile back and I can feel the blood rushing to my cheeks, I watched carefully as he continues to play, nick being the rugby king he is, scores most of the trys, I cheer for him every time he did so I was obviously his  number one fan, sometimes he would even call me his little cheer leader, which made me blush so hard, Elle thought it was cute and tao just thought it was weird and gags every time nick and I flirt, nick scores once more and then miss singh blows her whistle

"ALRIGHT LADS THATS IT FOR TODAY"she shouts across the field i suddenly start to get nervous thinking about whats gonna happen after school, what if everything goes wrong? what if nick thinks I'm disgusting because of my scars? what if nick feels pressured? what if, what if, what if?  I suddenly snap out of my thoughts at someone talking " Hey you~" I hear nick say as he ruffles my hair " hey"I say back looking at the ground he lifts my head by the chin." hey what's wrong?" he asks sweetly " nothing it's nothing " I say looking him in the eyes.

he bends down to eye leave I follow him with my eyes " Char you know you can talk to my about anything " He says looking at me genuinely concerned " I-I n-no I shouldn't it's stupid " I stutter and look away " Char please tell me what's wrong I'm worried" he begs " can we talk about it somewhere else " I say still looking away "ok" he says and takes my hand, he leads me out of school and we start to walk to his house "so are you gonna tell me what's wrong?" he asks, "y-yes" I say shyly

" you know how we've talked about taking a step further in our relationship.....I-I was just scared about you seeing my scars and like what if you lose interest in me and then we break up and I relapse and I'm just so scared that your gonna think I look ugly because I am and-and i just don't wanna lose you" my voice trails off as i countuine talking letting all of it all out , I feel a tear fall of my cheek,"char.."i hear him say but i keep rumbling on"char"he repets but it just keeps spewing out like word vomit "char!"he says louder now he grabs my face and smashes our lips together he deepens the kiss then we pull apart

"i love you char you have to know that,I think your the most beautiful person ever i could never ever think that you are ugly you are gorgeous and we don't have to take a step up in our relationship if you don't want to....but I do want you to know that I am ready when you are" he says blushing "you mean it?" I ask shyly "every part of it" he says and wipes my tears, then there's silence, and then we burst out into to laughter,m I rest my head in the nock of his neck "I love you too "I whisper he lifts my head and we kiss once more, he looks into my eyes and all I see is desire, I know what he wants and I want it to.