Rise from the ashes (an elemental tale)

Feeling

The rain was pelting down on us, yet we clung to each other tighter.

"I hate the thought of losing you again Phoenix," he whispered in my ear.

Before I could reply I heard faint shouting in the distance.

It was Connley.

I let go of Zayne and walked closer to Connley's voice. I saw him in the distance and sent a strong breeze his way, making him aware of where I was. He started walking my way and I turned around to say goodbye to Zayne, but he was gone.

Disappointment rolled off of me in waves and I trudged away from the place that now reminded me of him.

"Hey watch where you're going soldier." said Connley, after I bumped into him.

"Sorry." I merely stated, with my head bowed and eyes finding sudden interest in the dirt and grass beneath us.

His playful expression immediately turned serious and he asked, "What happened Phoenix?"

"Nothing," was my vague reply.

"I don't believe that for a second." he stated.

"Then believe it for a millisecond." I stated, imitating Alexander's knack for sarcasm.

"Phoenix you know if somethings up you can tell me right?" he asked.

"Sure," I whispered, "now if you excuse me I'll be on my way." I continued, walking ahead of him and back to the school.

My mind was far removed from this conversation and rather lingered on the disappearing act pulled by Zayne.

I wonder why he did it? Was it because I got distracted? Was it because of Connley? Or, was it because I no longer interested him? Was it because I gave in to his wishes and that was all it took for me to fly off his radar?

Was I that pathetic?

Feelings I long ago buried started coming to forefront of my mind, pulsing, harsh feelings. The only way to get rid of them is to distract myself.

Connley.

I feel bad for worrying him, but he'll be fine. If anything Connley would probably be the first person I'd want to confide in, but he needs to understand that there's a limit to the trust I give.

Eventually I get back to school, apologise for my sudden outburst and life goes on.

By lunchtime I'm positively dead and question whether the Meyers' sent me here to die.

The worst part is its not the school work, it's the long, boring hours of nothingness I've had to endure.

The fact that the monotone voices of all the damn teachers couldn't erase the pounding headache I got from my overthinking is crazy.

I think this school may break me.

I take a seat with everyone else and barely participate in conversation.

The cafeteria doors burst open and in comes Zayne, nonchalantly walking around doing his own thing as per usual.

I freeze.

Then the flashbacks occur.

Flashbacks of me, him, friendship bracelets, and finally, me being dragged away...

I come back to the present, aware of the people surrounding me, and bury my head in my arms, making the excuse of me being tired.

The cafeteria doors open once again and I couldn't care less for whoever just strolled in, until this person decided to make an appearance at our table.