One Right Decision

7| Regrets and Mishaps

Chapter 7

I cry. My head is buried under the pillow. My life is worst than a train wreck. My life reminds me of the beaver that lost its cotton candy to water. I don't get it! My situation got so messed up so quickly. In the whole span of a day, I met my crush, his ex-best friend, and to-be girlfriend and all they had for me was advice. Unsolicited pieces of advice.

I haven't come out of my room since the party. I keep on crying as if my world has come to end. I didn't know that this helping out thing would hurt so much!

It's like am pushed into a sea, off the boat, during the storm, and am trying to stay afloat without anyone's help. I knew what I had to do. I go into the big piano room in the house, lucky my mom made it soundproof so I can play it at any time.

I sit on the piano and grace my fingers reminding me of the familiarity I have with each key. Music is an escape from reality. But the reality is what adds soul to the music. I start playing the first song that comes to my mind, the song that my mom played so often to me, only because she knows how to play that one perfectly.

Life is never easy for a single parent, nor is it for a single child. I have so many regrets in life so many-

For not letting my mother marry again after my dad's death, not letting myself enjoy my life as it is thinking I deserved the worst, having no goals as I move forward in my life, and having these unrealistic expectations with love. Loving someone so deeply that it hurts to think about them.

Before I realize I was a crying mess, choking on a sob, while my fingers just played and played. It hurts so bad. I keep on playing to calm my nerves down but nothing seems to stop these racing train of thoughts in my head. Life was never told to be easy, but should it be this hard just to survive?

It's just a crush! You just like someone and they don't like you back. 

I keep telling myself but nothing seems to work.

I hate this! Every ounce of it.

Just as I choke on another sob. My mom comes into the room. She is shocked to see my state and rushes to the bench to sit beside me. It gets so hard to breathe, all the unnecessary thoughts are keeping me so occupied that it took me a long time to realize I was not playing but rather hugging my mom and crying. Crying so much that my eyes are swollen and red.

"Tell me what is wrong?" My mother asks me. I just keep on sobbing. She rubs her hand on my back, with each stroke telling me an here.

"Aarav likes someone else," I tell between my sobs, that one sentence is enough for mom to understand I like him, no love him!

"It's ok Saumya, things don't go planned like always. You will obviously find someone better." My mom tells me, but how do I tell her about the deeper problem?

"He asked me to help to propose to that girl and I told yes," I tell her.

"Are you insane Saumya?" My mom shouts at me that makes me just cry more. I would expect her to say something nice, but she was also angry with me.

"Maa," I call to her but she is visibly showing her anger at me. I know I made a mistake, but some mistakes are justified because of the feelings I have.

"Stop talking to him and meeting him, Saumya." My mom says and every word coming out of her mouth riles me up.

"Why should I stop talking to him?" I ask her with so much anger. The soundproof room might not have done justice, because my grandparents came running to check what is going on.

"You don't need him in your life." She tells me again, but this time softly. That makes me so angry. I push the chair am sitting on. I look at my mom with so much anger. The whole of my surroundings is painted red.

"Don't talk to me." I shout in her face and make a run to my room, while my mom just comes halfway behind me and says "That's not how you talk to your mother. Stay in your room. You won't even get to eat lunch today."

As if am dying of hunger. I don't need any food.

Aarav's POV

"Dude, how long will you be with Saumya?" Ravi asks me as I sit by the bar with him.

"What do you mean? We are friends." I answer him back.

"You already know, she likes you a whole lot and yet you pretend to not know that. Such a prick." He snorts as he takes a sip of his drink.

Yes, I know that Saumya likes me so much. Yet, I don't like her in such a way. Saumya is sweet, caring, and not at all my type. I am with her because she gets things done easily and listens to me very well. She stands by my side when I need to and I just love how things are easygoing with her.

I look at her to make sure she is ok and that's when I find her with him. My sworn enemy.

He is the reason my life was miserable from the start. I walk up to Saumya and pull her out of the party with a tight grip in my hand. She struggles her best to leave but I hold it so tight, am sure it will leave marks.

" I don't need to tell you, your not my boyfriend." That one sentence just makes me feel so bad. I can't explain how I feel. It's as if I have been ripped off a title I never had. I just shut my mouth. I really shouldn't care who she talks with, when am not her boyfriend. But she wouldn't shout at me for something like that. I ask her what else is wrong, only to find that Isha likes me back. Great, we will be such a powerful couple in college. I can't wait to call her my girlfriend.

I don't know why but I hug Saumya. Though it feels good we can never be together. We don't mesh well.

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