SHE SHOWERED until the skin on her fingertips pruned and still she couldn't get the feel of him off her. Her hopes that he'd leave her be at the end of the night had been foolish, she realized now. She should have prepared herself. Wishing for things that couldn't be was wasteful and she wouldn't do it again. It made her weak and she needed to be strong.
She didn't, wouldn't, categorize her escape as wishful thinking. But to make it a reality, she had to be as focused as a laser. That meant total acceptance of what was in order to create that which would be.
While she was here, she belonged to Jones. She was his toy, his lapdog and being an obedient lapdog was the only way to minimize punishment. It was also useless to dream she could be good enough to escape any punishment, because he didn't need an excuse. Excuses were merely conveniences.
So she'd be good. Attentive. She'd even pretend not to be repulsed. Which wouldn't be as hard as it could have been. He'd never focused his energy sexually. He preferred dominance. Power trips. There was little doubt in her mind that when he masturbated, if he masturbated, it was to thoughts of Steve Jobs losing money, not her in a string bikini.
All that worked in her favor. Once he felt certain of her obedience. He'd leave her alone for the most part.
She'd be expected to appear at his side whenever necessary, boost his ego when alone and from time to time he'd treat her cruelly. She could take it.
What she didn't know was how much control he was going to give the nanny. Jones wasn't going to let Kelly have free rein with Shaun, of course. But if she could show that Shaun would learn better, behave better, in her presence, then she might be able to have access to him.
If Jones decided to take Shaun away, everything was lost. She had to move fast, move carefully and have a plan. Right now, that meant finding a way to talk to James. She had Togo shopping and she assumed James would be her watchdog. She just hoped Jones was sure enough about James to send him alone.
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RomanceLike father . . . like son. The empty crib, the warning note - Kelly Declaremount-black recognised the signs that her secret life had been discovered. To save her son, she became the willing captive of a man arrogantly convinced that her baby was hi...
