Janet Pov
Toni raised from my couch exiting out of my room... "Toni w-wait!... I shouted getting up chasing after her... I caught up with her just as she started to go down the stairs pulling on her arm stoping her.. "Why the fuck you keep running away toni??.. You need to stop this shi- "The reason why I left yo ass alone was be-because I started developing deeper feelings for you JJ!
My eyes widened in shock.... After hearing her say that... Even tho it sounded like heaven to my ears... To her she didn't look to happy to confess how she felt about me. "O-kay?.... And that's a bad thing bec- " Wait let me finish JJ.... "sigh... The reason why I say that is because we were besties Jay... Grew up practically like sister's... Like right now Im 29 and your 30 and not to mention our "Son Is- "Hol the fuck up...Our Son?! THE FUCK YOU MEAN OUR SON?!... I shouted scrunching up my face looking at toni as if she has four heads. ....
"JJ calm the hell down and let me explain...Toni reached out grabbing at my wrist but I snatched it away mean muggin the fuck outta her..
"Explain then.... Why the fuck yo ass wanna let me know twelve years later that I have a son huh?... Twelve fucking Years.... TWELVE WHOLE FUCKING YEARS I MISSED OUT ON BEING A MOM... T... CAUSE OF YO ASS NOT EVEN HAVING COURTESY TO PICK UP THE MUTHAFUCKIN PHONE TO CALL ME AND LET ME KNOW THAT I HAD GOT YO ASS PREGNANT....
I can't explain the anger I have running through my veins as I watch toni crying harder into her hands that's placed over her face... Her ass should feel guilty keeping me away from my seed that I planted in her ass..... "How could you keep a secret from me like this for so long??..
"JJ I'm so sorr- I waved her off turning my back on her not wanting to hear shit else toni had to say as I walked back into my bedroom slaming both french doors hard as I could putting my back against it... I exhaled breaking down out of hurt and pain..
I need someone to talk to quickly before I end up saying some shit that could cause me not being able to form a bond with my son.. I grabbed my cell going to my contacts to call Gil when toni started knocking on my door...
I frowned standing to my feet wiping away the stray tears away with my hands into my clothes motioning to my door... "JJ I know you're mad... and you have every right to be.... But put yourself in my shoes for once.... Just Please- Open the door and let's talk about this like adults... Toni voice trembled on the other side of my door
I rolled my eyes opening back up the door looking at toni's sad guilty face... But she's right I should atleast give her a chance to explain herself before I go off my shit... Without saying a word I stepped aside allowing her to come back in... But this time she chose not to sit...
"Sigh. .Okay I know that this is alot to take in right now but... After we had sex... I-I just couldn't face you the very next day because it had me questioning my inner feelings for you... And I was scared to tell you how I really felt about you JJ... So that's why I distance myself from you...
Then four weeks later just as I was getting back in a better head space I started becoming motion sickness every morning I woked up it seemed like... I stayed sleepy alot... Very Fatigued.. Not wanting to do shit
I was in denial with myself.. Because I was three days late on my period..But I just kept telling myself that I was overwhelmingly stressed out on trying to pass all of my courses.. Not to forget inching closer towards graduation Ugh!...
"So when did you came to realization that you were pregnant? I asked leaning my back against the back of my door biting my bottom lip nervously .... " I went ahead and took a pregnancy test within five days later after still not seeing shit........ Toni spoke low and sadly looking down at my floor.. She then said something that tore my heart..
