Janet Pov-
It's been a week and two days since me and toni's altercation ... And I don't know how much of this shit I can take... It's bad enough that my own son doesn't won't shit to do with me after he found out through toni that I hurt her to the core with my poor actions....
And to top it off my company is on the edge of being brought out by Nicki's crooked ass.... Shit.. by the way my life is going right now?... Ion deserve nothing that the world has to offer.... That's why I decided to put both of my cribs up foe sell ..... And start new somewhere else ... Call it what you wanna but the people that I love deserve nothing but the absolute best...
While the moving team packed and move all of my belongings from out of both houses back in L.A... I took the time to get away from all the bull shit that I made sure to leave back in cali... Taking a breather flying my ass out to Hawaii where I can actually think and get a better outlook on things that was once surrounded around me .
And my if this isn't paradise.... Boy wouldn't it been nice to have my ex and son out here with me soaking up this breath taking scenery ....But hell who am I kidding... Ian even got the energy to enjoy shit... It just seem like everytime I try to move on and try not to think about toni and lil man?... I can't stop my tears from falling...
God I miss them so much.. And what I would give to hold tiny't in my arms one more time... And what I would give to be able to play video games with my lil mini me one more time.... I just had to fuck everything up that's why my ass is on this beautiful island all alone now ..
I can't help but smile and laugh to myself while laying back in bed looking through old and recent videos and pics of jaylen, me and Toni... They were so happy and so was I....
I scoff rolling my eyes at the incoming call seeing it is Kia's ass calling me once again... She done did enough damage as it is....
I cleared my throat swiping my phone with anger behind it..."Look hoe I told you... I don't want yo—......
"Janet, look Im not calling you to start shit... And I'm not gonna hold you long... I just wanted to say that I was selfishly out of line for what I did... And to be honest it really hurt me watching you have this glow on you.. And after seeing how beautiful your girlfriend is I saw why..... But Janet you hurt me too... Because you could've just been honest with me and told me that you were in the middle of getting to know her more verses leading me into think we had a chance to be together..
Kia does have a point... I could've been straight with her... But I didn't even take her feelings into consideration.. Instead I abused her character all because I was in my lustful state of mind...After knowing damn well I didn't see her as girlfriend material.. I took a deep breath hearing slight sniffles on the other end of the phone ..
I couldn't help but cry along.. All because this shit could've been avoided only if I'd just kept it real.. with this girl... "Look Kia I'm sorry alright ?... I didn't mean to have led you on the way that I did.... It was wrong and selfish of me to do that shit to you . I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me ... And Just know you are a good beautiful woman but you're just not the girl for me And I'm not the girl for you,You feel me?...
Low-key I'm glad that we're having this conversation... And after knowing the reason to why she said and did what she did was because I played with her emotions.... "It's cool babe .. And I forgive you and I also hope you could find it in your heart to for forgive me aswell... Kia questions sniffling some on the other end of the call.. I smiled wiping my stray tears that slowly ran down the sides of my face.. " Yea I do... Were good ... I'm glad you called... I wish you nothin but the best.. Take care Kia...
"You too and I hope that you get ya girl back .. I mean y'all did look cute togetha or what eva... . I kissed my teeth at her shady comment... " Cute?... Shhiii you know damn well we looked sexy as hell together... Damn I miss them so much ... I gotta get my family back .. But I believe I'm far too late ..
