𝐼 𝐶𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝐴𝑛𝑦𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 [𝑬𝒅𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈]

chapter sixteen

                          "Alejandro's" pov

I was madly in love with Anna, so much it hurt to know how my heart had belonged to someone so pure and perfect. I had never expected to fall in love with her at the time, I was young and had only been focused on doing football and fitting in. But she came around and I found myself walking her to class, inviting her over to study, asking her out to the movies. Things did go slow and I knew with her I should take my time, and I did. I had patience when it comes to her, because she was worth my time. Is worth my time. I had gotten into football to let go of any pent up anger I had developed, but now school was over I found myself becoming...less patient with every single thing. I found myself becoming frustrated and irritated with work, whether it's because of stupid coworkers or because things didn't go my way, I was..becoming angrier. And i hated it because I didn't want to be around Anna when I was angry...or I didn't know what I would do.

With school I was pretty well known, everyone knew I was with Anna and I knew I didn't have anything to worry about. But with us moving in and her working and farther away I couldn't protect her from everything like I had done before and that worries me. Because I had always come to her rescue and protected her and yet she's getting a job and going out with her boss and I didn't know what to expect anymore.

"Hello?" A voice sprung me out of my dream state and I focus back to find myself still at work, still working on this stupid car I knew wouldn't get fixed. I loved working on cars, working and fixing broken things. But this car in particular had been in a bad accident and needed a Miracle, luckily I believed in those.

"Hey Josh just...working on this-"

"You've been working on it for weeks, take a break. Get some rest, go home to that girlfriend of yours" he shook his head, walking away before I could say anything. Josh was more like a dad than a boss, I had been at this job for years and he had taken a liking to me and I didn't mind.

I had more respect for him than anyone else here.

Standing up I check my phone to find a few unread messages from Anna but I don't answer, instead I get back on my knees and prepare to work on the car longer than ever.

I did feel...rude to not answer but I'm sure she would understand. Hopefully.

By the time I come home it's one in the morning, stepping through the front door trying to be as quiet as possible. I don't remember her work schedule but I know she was already home, her shoes packed neatly by the door. Stepping inside I close the door behind me and throw my keys onto the table near the door, completely exhausted and worn out. My body felt sore and I knew I needed a shower and needed sleep right away.

Heading upstairs, I hear water running and I'm both confused and in shock as to why the shower is running so late.

I knock on the bathroom door and I hear a sound of the door unlocking and I take that as my cue to open the door and am hit by a wave of steam.

"Hey" it's her voice from the other side of the shower curtains and I can't help but feel a ping of irritation as to why she's taking a shower right when I'm coming home.

"Hey...." I speak slowly and instead of saying anything else I leave, closing the door. Heading into the bedroom, I throw my shoes off and toss them into the closet, feeling my blood boil a little more. I know she didn't get off this late, it's a damn coffee shop. All I wanted was a nice hot shower....fucking hell.

Guess I'll have to wait..or just shower tomorrow.

"Hey" I turn around and she's standing there, her eyes on mine as she's only in a silk towel that clings tightly to her tiny body. Her hair is damp and she's staring at me with a concerned look in her eyes and see has every right to be, if I was getting upset with this I didn't know how my anger would affect us whatsoever. I couldn't talk to her about it, I didn't know how it would help.

"You alright?" She asks me and I nod, taking in the sight of her. She is beautiful, so beautiful. I could see on her shoulders the bite marks I had left and I did feel bad but I also felt good to have known to mark her as mine for all who didn't know.

"How was work?" She asks me and I shrug, feeling too exhausted for questions.

She doesn't push it and instead comes over and kisses me softly, pulling away with a smile on her lips.

"There's hot water..it's just...I got my.. you know...period and had to shower. I'm sorry" she says softly and I could feel my heart crumble, she genuinely seemed terrified and I didn't want that from her whatsoever. Never.

"Thank you baby and it's okay...I will be here for you because I know how uncomfortable and painful it is."

She nods and pulls me into a hug and I let her, her warm embrace overwhelming me completely.