Shout Out To My Ex (Little Mix Series #1 - COMPLETE)

chapter 20

"Master, iwan muna namin kayo."

"Thanks, Brice."

Hindi pa rin ako makagalaw sa aking kinauupuan. I just heard their footsteps walking away. Hindi pa rin ako gumalaw. Nasa harapan ko si Vench at nakatayo habang ako ay nakaupo rito sa bench ng garden namin.

I played with my fingers as my head was still focused on the ground. I heard him sighing then I felt him sitting beside me. I bit my lip then pressed my lips together. Napalunok ako. There was a deafening silence between us.

"I'm sorry. Are you okay?" I heard him ask. Napakurap-kurap ako. Ramdam ko ang tingin niya sa akin. I swallowed hard and averted my gaze to him.

Nagkatitigan kami. I saw how he was so worried with the way he was looking at me. I bit my lip hard as I stared at him, too. I didn't know what to say…I still couldn't believe what he did and said earlier.

Thinking about what he did earlier makes me think how lucky I am to be his friend and to have him. Oh, Lord. How can I say no to this man? How can I not hurt him? Ayoko siyang mawala. Ayokong mawala kung ano'ng meron kami…pero hindi ko alam kung paano iyon dahil sa pinagtapat niya. I mean…I have my answer already but I'm scared what the consequence will be kapag sinabi ko na. I know Vench and I know that he would definitely understand me…but I don't know…it's still scary.

"Hey…" he called. Kinagat ko ang aking labi lalo na nang marahan niyang kinuha ang aking kamay. Napalabi ako habang nakatingin pa rin sa kanya.

Humigpit ang kapit niya sa aking kamay. I was still in awe and I still couldn't say anything. Biting my lip, I just stared at him. He gave out a deep breath.

"I'm sorry about that. I didn't know why she went up to you. She confessed to me earlier and I just told her the truth about how I cannot return what she feels for me because you know what I feel for you, Resche. I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry kung nadamay ka sa problema ko. It's not yours to handle. It's mine. I am so sorry." I felt like my heart was warmed the moment he brought my hand to his lips. "And don’t listen to them, Resche. It’s time that you focus on yourself, okay? Haters don't matter. Wala silang alam sa iyo. They are all just noise…"

I couldn't help it anymore. My eyes were watering already. Nakatingin pa rin ako sa kanya at sa hindi malamang dahilan ay parang dinudurog ang puso ko. He was too precious. Oh gosh…

Hindi ko na napigilan at mabilis ko siyang hinila at niyakap nang mahigpit. Tuluyan na ring bumaba ang mga luha sa aking pisngi. I could feel na nagulat siya sa ginawa ko pero ilang segundo lang ay niyakap niya na rin naman ako. I buried my face on his shoulder and cried silently.

"Thank you…thank you so much," I said in between sobs. I felt him caressing my back.

"Shh… it's fine. I'll always be here for you, okay? Nandito lang ako. Nandito lang kami ng mga kaibigan mo, okay?" I nodded multiple times as I was still crying.

I don't know. Para akong sinasampal ng katotohanang sobra-sobrang swerte ko kay Vench. To be loved by someone like him was an honor. Now I know why he was every girl's dream, why a girl would fight over his love. He's the dream guy…the complete opposite of my asshole ex. Oh Lord, you are so good to me…

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My awkward moments with Vench went on for days. We would still hangout pero tahimik lang kami. The issue about that canteen scene died eventually and since then, wala na akong nakitang nangmamata sa akin. That girl na binasted ni Vench, hindi ko na rin nakita. Everything went quiet and I didn't know if that was a good thing or not.

Everyone's busy with graduation, college and our graduation ball. Everyone's excited about it, too, but not me. Kung noon, sobrang excited ko na gusto ko na lang iwanan na ang school na ito, ngayon hindi na. Alam ko kasing ang pagtatapos na ito ay pagtatapos din ng maraming bagay.