Desires over pain

chapter six

"only God will ever know how i loved you
And no matter what he faced, i pushed through
A lot of things with you, i had planned to do
But i guess all this never concerned you "

I knew that he was hurted but i didn't care, i have suffered worst. I was disappointed in my self. And i was sure mom and dad will be also. I got home and decided to have a nice calming bath until i heard a knock on the door. I opened it and i saw a pretty lady standing there. She had ocean blue eyes, she had applied a red lipstick and she looked quite alluring. " hello" she said to me and i noticed that she had a strange accent but it was none of my business.
" hey, do you want anything "
"can i please come in"
" sure" i let her in because she looked harmless to me but i change my mind three seconds later. She grabbed me from my back and slammed my head on the wall. My head was spining, i turned back as i pushed her to the door and ran to my bedroom but she was faster. I tried lock the door but she held my hair, i tried to pull away but i could not. I used all my strength to push the door and she let go of my hair. Hell, she was strong. I could fight, my dad was a police officer and he often took me for self- defense classes. I waited for her to attack me and she did. I held her hands as i pushed her to the floor and i kept punching her until she started bleeding. I ran out of my room to my door and that crazy bitch was right behind me and she tried to push me down. I held on to the railings, i wasn't going to let her push me, i might jump on my own but no one is going to push me.
Like the pain was different. I was still struggling with her when i saw Raphael and some guys that looked like his bodyguards run upstairs and held her. I was on the floor too lazy to stand up. Oh, you got me, i wanted him to carry me upstairs. I just thought about something that i was sure that everyone as been reasoning to. This is the second time that i was going to be attacked and i forgot about it. Now i think someone is trying to kill me. I shuddered at the thought. I didn't have much enemies, i dont even have money and i was alone for anybody to accuse me of stealing their man. I was still lost in thoughts when Raphael knelt down beside as he asked " are you okay "
" how can i be okay, i just fought someone right now and she tried to kill me " as i said that, i just thought about something, they weren't trying to kill me, they wanted to inflict pain, like that first guy he wanted to shoot me but not on my head or my heart. I wasn't sure about it but i wasn't going to trust Raphael because he tried to kill me before and he even killed my parents.
" Elaura, Elaura, hellooo, are you hearing me "
I turned to the voice and i saw him waving his hand in front of my face and i felt like pushing him. I didn't even know why he wasn't arrested.
"yeah, what do you want " i asked coldly i cant be sweet to my family's muderer.
" sweety, i just came to check up on you "
" well you didn't check up on me five years ago, so what changed your mind"
" must you always bring up the past"
" let me go you,d*ck head"
"calm down" he said in a soft voice that everyone but me will fall for.
I stood and walked back inside and slammed the door at his face.

I heard him knocking and begging for to let him in. I was tempted to but i didn't but i opened the door when he said he wanted to tell me about the people trying to hurt me.
"better be fast"
"can i at least sit" he said as he made his wsy to the couch, he started removing his shoe and i rolled my eyes, i didn't know that he saw me because he said " why the hell are you rolling your eyes"
" none of your business " i said. He stood up and walked towards me and i moved backwards, his eyes were red as he stared at me and i was scared, i know that look, when that guy harrased me several years ago, it was the same look. Maybe he wants to kill me also and i wouldn't let him, i promised myself. His next action was a little bit far from what i expected. He touched my head and i flinched because of the pain.
Pheww, it wasn't directed at me, i said as i took deep breaths. He rushed to the first aid box and i was shocked by how he knew where it was but i wasn't going to sound stupid by asking him because i know that all our discussions always end up in a deep arguement. He pulled me to the couch as he started cleaning. I winced and i felt tears gather in my eyes. But i didn't want him to see me as a weak person. His touch was soft, gentle and smooth but i felt pain. I couldn't help but curse that b*tch that caused it.
"it's going to be okay, let it out, shhh, oh stop crying, it hurts me to see you cry" he said and i didn't even know when i started crying but i couldn't stop. He pulled me to his chest and whispered something like ' i can never forgive myself' but i wasn't sure so i asked in a teary voice " huh?"
" nothing "
"okay" i said as i took calming breath as i cleaned my face. He stood up to dispose the wipes he used to clean the blood of my face. He came back with a glass of water and gave some pain killers to me. I took it without hesitating because my head was pounding hard.
" Remove your shirt, baby " he said and i was sure that i looked quite angry, i practiced that face in front of the mirror several times so i was sure that i looked angry.
" are you crazy or did you loose your brain on your way up here" i said more like i shouted.
" baby, what are you thinking, i just wanted to check if you have any injury on your body." He explained and i was ashamed of myself and my dirty thoughts. I hung my head low in shame as i muttered " sorry " he chuckled and pecked my forehead. " but if that's what you want " he said and i punched him but i was too slow and he was quite fast.
" slow baby girl, i was just joking but back to the reason why you let me in" he said with a serious face at the end of his sentence.
" I'm glad you understand why you are here" i said and he smirked.
" now, i dont know how you are going to take it but i have to tell you anyway"
"please be fast about it, i need to have a shower to wash that bitch's perfume off my body " i said.
"okay, dont panic but i need to tell you something important.... " i was closed to loosing it, if he didn't look serious, i would have thought that this was all a joke
" can you just say it"
"there's a price on your head, and it is worth a lot " i smiled at him, this was not the movies but he was telling me that i have a price in my head, i wasn't as beautiful as Selena Gomez or Rihanna or JLo, so how?, i wasn't even the female lead in my life. I asked myself how was it possible, i looked at Raphael trying to check if he was joking but he didn't smile he just sighed.
"hehehehe, you cant be serious?" I heard him say" i kinda expected a different kind of reaction but this i didn't except " and i knew that he was damn serious and i started panicking. I stood up and started pacing around the living room.
"God, i didn't even offend anybody, why is this place hot, it is quite hot in here isn't" i asked him but i didn't even wait for him to reply" Oh yes it is" i didn't even know when he stood up but i bumped into him and he held my shoulder as he said " Elaura breathe " he said and i started taking deep breaths. But it wasn't helping so i asked him " can someone develop asthma under one day " i asked him again but before he could answer, i answered " why am i asking you, i might not even have time to tell other people about my discovery, Oh God, Oh Good God ." i was rambling and rambling. Raphael held my chin to look at him, and i looked at him with tears in my eyes. He slammed his lips against mine and we did it again.
This time i was sure that i was going to win the arguement that he actually took advantage of me and i felt satisfied. I felt sore all over and i turned to glare at him but i shouted when i saw that he was awake staring at me. He smirked as he said " of course, baby i was going to let you win our arguement today" i blushed and i was sure that my whole face was tomato red. He heard everything and i said it aloud. Ahhhhh