Insatiable Beauty | Jikook

Reign

"It's the carefree outspoken nature children posses that we as adults could only envy. We were once children too, how could we ever forget?"
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(For the sake of not giving you beauts a headache and also for some of my readers who's English is not their first language, Ji's POV will be written a bit more legibly but his speech will be as usual!!)

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Baby Ji's POV

Mimi won't be lonely anymore. I never told him how I felt, how sad it made me to see him smile but his smile not reach his eyes. When mama and Appa be here before, Mimi eyes used to twinkle like little stars in the sky. But, sometime came and twinkle in Mimi eye no longer there.

It ran away. Disappeared!

Hehe. Papa teach me that word. Papa also told me that I can speak in my head. I got scared before. Because I'd hear myself speaking but my mouth was closed! So when I told papa that something hid in my head and began talking, papa laughed then explained why.

I love papas laugh. His laugh is so pretty. And he laughs really loudly, his eyes scrunching. Papa is so handsome. I wanna be like papa when I older. Be as strong as him and as handsome as him, but I want to be gentle at the same time like Mimi. Calm and soft. So people can talk to me easily.

Everybody like Mimi. Cuz mimi's very kind and sweet and beautiful and lovely and all things pretty. I wanna give Mimi my whole world. But he has papa now too and papa give him whole world too.

I have secret. I want to tell Mimi... but I think I might tell papa first because what if Mimi say no?... what should I do if say no?...

Will I be sad? Yeah... I probably will. But I won't know unless I try, right? Plus it's Mimi. Mimi won't make me sad.

I tell my secret.

My secret is.... I don't want to call Mimi, Mimi anymore. Because... Papa now marry Mimi, so... doesn't that make Mimi my Appa too?...

Even if Mimi and Papa didn't get married, Mimi feels like parent to me. I could still call him Mimi, cuz I love that name but, I don't know... is it weird?... would it be okay if Mimi really was my Appa? Does it really matter that Mimi isn't really my Appa....

Can I not pick who my Appa is?....

It like, if somebody no have parent like me anymore, can they not find their parent somewhere else? It not bout who our parent really is, but who make us feel like they r ours. It's a title you... um... wut the word?... OH! A title you earn! Papa teach me that too.

But yea. You have to earn it. Not all parents r good or can be good or.. or r just not there.... das y we find them somewhere else.

So.. now that I found my parents... can I really make them mine?... I know I call Papa, Papa but... do Papa see me as his Ji? Ion know...

I decided.

I will tell them.

Cuz u never know unless u try... so I'm trying. And if no go well, then... then I get over it.