Diary of a grieving heart

day 20

The more time passes the harder it becomes , the more I miss you. I burned off one of your favorite things accidentally I didn't mean to do it I swear. My sister got mad at me and honestly I don't blame her I would've done the same as well. If she would've done it I would be mad I would shout and scream but I did it myself so what was I supposed to do? I cried. I cried and I cried until I felt like my tears were running out and my throat was dry and she cried with me. I thought I was able to do it mom but I can't. We can't. I want you here I need you and I can't feel you anymore. I'm empty mam. I used to hate crying and now I cry myself to sleep every night and hope not to wake up tomorrow. I don't want to wake up without you I don't want to wake up in a world where you're gone. I came into this world the same date you did so it is only fair I leave the same date you left as well right? So why didn't you take me with you? I have so many regrets mom. I never said sorry to you properly, I never hugged you as much as I would've wished to, I never treated you like you deserved to be treated. Now I'm all alone. My heart is bleeding mom and my eyes are too they bleed every night for you.