Diary of a grieving heart

Day 60

Today is day 60 or should I say it has been 3 months since you left. Also coincidentally it's our birthday as well mom. You know how I used to think that i was so special and always wondered how it was possible that we were born on the same day and that we shared such a special link together..that was true, it is true but today I feel more lonely than ever. The one day dedicated to both of us when we are supposed to celebrate now we can't share it anymore. I fell asleep very early last night and I woke up early today. I cried of course..if you were expecting anything else from me than you're wrong. They say the year of the firsts is the hardest and that it true this was the hardest and shittiest birthday I've ever had. I remembered all the times in the past all of our birthdays and it shouldn't have been this way. You should have been here with me, you should have been the first one to wish me and I would've wished you back and we would have gotten a pretty present for you and we would have celebrated because it's my 18th birthday and maybe go out somewhere. I regret taking out so many friends and never inviting you to go out for a drink. I regret so many things,I regret not hugging you tighter not kissing you more, not giving you all the things that you deserve. I regret all of my decisions and I wish I could just see you one more time. I love you so much mom more than anything in the world and I hope to see you soon.
Happy birthday to us mom I'll never forget you