The Red Devil Bucky Barnes x male reader

trigger words

There wasn't anything anyone could do to help you, you were sadated before Bucky had even managed to reach the room you were held in, he of course was more concerned when he got there and it was silent, he was then shown the severance tapes from the room that showed the 'freak out' that had happened moments before he had arrived, the disision to keep you satiated had been made, along with Bucky's disision to have the jets peppered and wakandans given the message that the devil would be transported to them with in the next 48 hours and that he would be joined by the white wolf.

The journey took a few hours and remained silent exept for the occasional update from Jarvis. Bucky kept himself entertained with work, mainly attempting further researching into files that could potentially have connections to the Red Devil as well as a few files to do with his own recovery.

The process was going to take time, especially as there was such a lack of information behind the devil.

The journey to wakanda was estimated to take about 4 hours as it wasn't considered an emergency or as somting of high risk as your were heavily sadated, by now the first hour and a half had passed in silence, but once again unbeknownst to Bucky you were managing to awaken from the drugs they had given you this time, unlike last time you weren't partly conscious whilst under the drugs, so they had worked as they were supposed to however evidently it seemed to wear off sooner than everyone had hoped

Slowly opening your eyes again, your ears filled with the light hum of an engin, to your side you could just about see Bucky, he clearly hadn't noticed your sudden awareness as he was scrolling through some form of database

You didn't have to question if you had woken in restraints this time, it was like an automatic realization in the back of your mind, you simply expected it and it was true, that was something that should of been a priority, to know if or how you could get out however you weren't focused on that at all, instead you were watching Bucky intently with no thoughts surrounding your mind for a moment it was almost peaceful untill your voice decided to betray you

You weren't sure what you were attempting to say but your voice wasn't audible, your throat was too dry and tired your first attempt of forming a word created nothing at all and on possibly the third attempt your voice let out a small crack catching Buckys attention straight away

Looking up from his work at you but without moving from his seat he looked directly at you, not knowing what to say first of all

"Your awake"
It was a statement rather than a question, one to which there was no point verbally responding as your voice was so weak , so instead you did your best attempt to nod

"We're on our way to Wakanda, they helped get the solider oit of my head, they can help you too"

The air was filled with more silence before you finally decided to attempted to speak again

"No"
Surprisingly the words formed perfectly clear, catching Bucky slightly off gaurd

"Do you not want help?"

"That part doesn't matter"

"Why not?"
By now Bucky had set his reading material down and was paying close attention to you. A few more seconds of silence seemed to pass and you were showing no signs of answearing his question.

" it might take some time, and definitely some getting used to, you'll never be who ever you were before but at least you can be someone. They might want to ask some questions when we get there, all the information i have they already have been sent and any questions i can answer for you i can if you would prefer, ive been given the task to stay with you whilst your there so you can talk to me when ever you want whrn we're there."

He paused for a while to give you the opportunity to speak if you had anything you wanted to ask or add on to what he had already just said, however you once again like many times before chose to remain silent.

Bucky then chose to add on for you, clearly growing more use to your moments of silence as he had witnessed enough of them by now.

"I know I've asked you before, and if you chose not to that is fine thats all you have to say however i know it will be asked once your in wakand, but i need to know anything you remember"

Decideding not to lose your streak you didn't answer him

"Have you remembered yourname yet?"

"No"
You had chosen to not look at him whilst answering his questions, simply looking at the plain white ceiling instead

"Do you know where you were born?"

"Russia"
You spoke with out any emotion attached to your words

" do youremember your date of birth?"

"3rd of September 1918"

"Y'know that means I'm older than you by a year"
Bucky flashed a small smirk at the knowledge that you were both around the same age, or it might of been more due to the fact he was definitely right about you both being from around the same time

" do you have any siblings?"

There was a mild pause and for a second Bucky wasn't sure if he was going to get an answer

"Yes, i had a brother, he was older by 4 years"

" do youremember his name?"

For a moment Bucky thought he seen a flash of sadness shown on your face before you answered him

" his name was Semyon"
You flashed a weak saddened smile

"His favourite colour was purple and he liked boats"

Bucky fell silent once he noticed you had spoken in past tense about your brother

" he died of sickness when i was five "

"I'm sorry-

"Don't be, i can't really remember much of him anyway"

"Do you remember much else of your family?"

"No"

" they'll help you Red"

"No, they can't help me"

" they got the solider out of me they can get it out of you"

There was a silent smile growing across your face and you then let out a short deep chuckle

" Trigger Words James"
Bucky's eyes widened at the sound of his first name on your tounge

"How-

"You had trigger words, thats what they used to bring the soilder out"

Bucky felt as though he couldn't form whatever words he needed to say

" Get rid of the words get rid of the reaction... Do you know why that is Bucky..?"

"W-

"Because the Winter Soldier isn't really you, its separate, they made it a part of you and its in your head but its still not who you are they put him there... and as great as that news is for you.. its bad news for me"

"How is it bad news for you Red?"
Bucky was hesitant

"Its bad news for me because the devil isn't apart of me... It is me, i don't have Trigger Words James because. I am. Always. The  Devil...
And I REMEMBER EVERYTHING."