!Rewriting! Always and Forever (ReeKid X Reader)

12

Ah shit. Why did I have to say that? You asked yourself, having to mentally scold you for what came out of your mouth.

"What did you do..?" Reekid asked, before slowly rolling up your sleeve, not being able to notice anything.

"I... may or may not have reopened old scars from the previous time I... self harmed.." You explained. Not being able to face the person next to you. "You won't find them on my forearm, they're closer to my shoulder." You mentioned.

Anthony gently pulled the top of your shirt, being struck speechless when he saw a pink tint to the bandages before letting go as to not be an invasion of the private parts of your body. He just wasn't aware of the issue being this bad.

"The previous time... As in you haven't stopped." He assumed.

"You could put it like that, or it has yet to be determined on if I'm going to put an end to it." You countered. Trying to give it a different point of you.

"But you still reopened them. Which was harming yourself anyway." Your boyfriend pointed out, gently lifting you closer to him. "Will you let me help you through it?"

"I'm not stopping you if that answers your question." You replied, having to shift so there wasn't too much pressure on your one side.

"You don't deserve to have these on your body. You're too gorgeous for it." Reekid spoke as he wrapped his arms around your torso.

"Well you're too brilliant to for me to have you in my life. Honestly I'm concerned Josh knew what was going on before he even met me for us to become a thing." You replied, in a competitive voice even if there was nothing to be competitive about.

Anthony couldn't help but laugh. "There's the you I know. To be fair, I thought the guy knew you for awhile which is why he's been here in Australia for so long. But he really just met you?" He wondered.

"My mother always brought home people from different places of the world. I wasn't surprised when she yelled at me to meet him. It surprised me to see her keep him around as long as she did and currently still is." You answered.

"I guess she found the right guy then." The male assumed.

You knew knew it wasn't like that, you just didn't want to say anything because you were terrified of what might happen after you told anyone.

"Speaking of Josh, I heard him and the boys were heading back to America. Is that true?" You wondered. Obviously just being curious.

"Yeah. I'm eighty five percent sure they'll be dragging us over there sometime. But we have these things called excuses." Your boyfriend explained.

Great. When things will take a turn for the worst. Of course. You figured. For both Josh leaving Australia, and also bringing you to America.

"The only use school has. An excuse on why we can't make the trip." You giggled.

"I was thinking the same thing." Anthony commented, having to give you a gentle squeeze. "I love you."

"I love you too. I've always said you're too good for me, but I really do want to stay with you forever." You replied.

"I think I'm quite lucky to be brought into your life. Eventually I'll get to say I saved you from a few things." He chuckled.

"I can think of more than a few things. I don't think we need to get into it though." You responded.

"Well, we just need to get you out of that depressive attitude and then you won't need to think that way." Reekid concluded. "And I may not be able to fix your problem with anxiety but I'm sure as hell going to try."

You smiled and yawned. "Have fun with that. I'll try not to make it a big deal though, like I did the other day at my mother's house..."

"The only thing I wish you would've did, was pull me or Josh aside and actually tried to mention it." Anthony sighed. "But we can't change that, and I'm really not mad about it. I can't say I know what it feels like but I can say that I know it's not always the easiest to manage." He mentioned, trying to be supportive of it.

"It's nice to know you understand that. Thank you." You spoke up, lifting yourself and kissing your lovable boyfriend on the cheek before laying back down.

"So here's a question, did you just put the bandages on your cuts or did you use something to disinfect them?" He asked.

"I just wrapped bandages around my arm." You answered.

"Do you trust me enough to try to treat them myself? I'm just asking because I do know I don't want it getting worse, and that you have comfort zones."

"I could get a towel and wrap it around myself?" You suggested.

"So can we get it done now so it's out of the way?" Reekid asked in a polite way.

You got up and nodded as a response. So for the next few minutes you and Anthony were getting your scars to properly be dealt with.