Broken Rings

Chapter 12

Autumn POV:

As he says this, I looked at him confused, what does he mean when he says he needs a baby? What does that have to do with the conversation that we were having but getting nowhere? And why is it important?

Matthew is still tugging at my hand and he gently pulls me back into my seat after looking at the expression on my face. I must have been in a state of shock that I actually let him pull me into my chair.

As I recover and try to figure out what to do or say next, Matthew watches me carefully, studying my body language and facial expressions.

Finally after a few minutes of silence yet again, I stared up at Matthew, still trying to make sense of what he was trying to say.

"What do you mean?" I slowly say, almost afraid of finding out the truth of what he possibly means.

But this is what I wanted for so long, I need to hear the truth once and for all.

Matthew sighs as he shakes his head, he grabs my hand, but this time, he doesnt let me go, like he really wants me to hear what he has to say.

"You were a dream Autumn, you were everything I wanted and more" He whispered, but only enough to make me hear.

To this, I tear up, I don't know why, but emotional things like this make me tear up quickly. Maybe it's because I'm trying so hard to control whatever emotions I'm having when I face Damian, that my brain will switch on the tear fountain whenever my brain is trying to be in control.

I don't understand why my brain can't be stronger to handle my emotions. I came so far from this nightmare that the least my body and brain can do is not make me tear up, especially in front of someone that doesn't deserve to see the tears.

Matthew continues, "I wanted to marry you and have kids, and maybe retire to Rome when we grow old" He's looking at me like he genuinely means this.

Before I can say something, he beats me to it, "But my parents had different plans, you know this, they believe in the a certain way of living"

I nodded as I kept listening to him. Maybe trying to read more into what he is saying, just in case.

"My parents didn't approve of you because they knew you wouldn't play in their ideal role as my wife, so they convince me" Matthew sighs as he continues, "I swear I didn't want to do it, but they offer me something that I know would save me a lot of time and I was able to do the things I wanted in life"

To this, I feel myself turning emotional and willing to listen to anything he says to anger and rage, how dare he. What could be more important than marrying someone that you 'love'.

Like what could his parents offer him that is so much better that Matthew would stupidly listen to them and cancel our wedding.

Did they buy him a whole house? Car? Country?

"Autumn, you really need to listen to me" he says as he notices that I'm thinking about what he's saying and taking it all in.

I looked up at him, and I nodded, giving him the go to continue what he was saying.

"I had to take this offer, it was one of the best things that ever happened to me, but my parents wanted some things in return, of course. My parents didn't want me to marry you and they found someone that they like"

As Matthew kept explaining this to me, I kept thinking to myself, is this even worth it? What am I doing to myself?

I wanted comfort from him for so long and now that I'm getting what I want, I'm not satisfied and he hasn't even finished with the explanation.