Just One Shot

005: Gianna & Wayne

Gianna: I've been with different circles of friends for my 22 years in life. And all of that didn't last long and will not last long. It's not that I'm bitter; it's just the truth from my experience.

Wayne: And why is that?

Gianna: It is because I didn't allow myself to get attached to them. I didn't let myself become dependent on them. I'm afraid that if I'm too attached to them, I'll become obsessed with their time, and presence.

Wayne: Have you had a best friend all your life?
 

Gianna: Almost. I can't force someone to be my best friend. Especially when that person was a best friend before with someone else, who's been calling me a friend not a best friend. And I don't deserve a best friend like that.

Wayne: Why do you say that? Did that person do something to you to make you like that?
 
Gianna: Let's just say yes, and I won't tell that story anymore. And I am very grateful that I myself heard and saw that. It's a good thing that person hasn't really become my best friend because I know for myself that the moment I become more attached to someone, I will become obsessed with that person's time. Too much attachment becomes my obsession, and I hate that. 

Wayne: Have you experience being called their best friend?

Gianna: To be honest, I'm not like the other students who have a so-called best friend. I'm not particularly friendly, who is eager to make new friends nor to have friends. Why? I don't know. Maybe I'm contented with my siblings because, despite our disagreements, our bond remains strong. We're not the type of person who spend more time hating on each other.

Wayne: What is friendship for you?

Gianna: In friendship, there is a point in our lives where we will also be enemies. It doesn't matter whether it's a small or big thing, but believe me or not, even if you say that you've been okay and that you've made a solution to get along? It's inevitable that one of you will doubt whether what he or she is showing you is real or whether he or she's been backstabbing you again.

Wayne: Is that so? How sure are you with that?

Gianna: Because I did that thing once in my life. I know they have been talking behind my back, even though they were my friends. No matter how they chitchat at me or make me their best of friend, I know, and I know that they've been talking behind my back; it's either good or bad. There are other fabricated stories. And what's worse, they're not me they are them.

Wayne: Speaking of fake news, haven't you tried to answer them? Even just once? Or even confront them?
 

Gianna: Nope. Because I don't see the reason why I have to explain to them if they themselves gave the conclusion in their brain. I mean, why would I explain those things I didn't do? It made me look like I do those things. So to those who have been or will be my friends: Sorry if I myself don't want attachment when it comes to friendship. Yes, it's okay that we're friends, but being best friends—that's a different story.