The next morning
Hazel
Gus had very bad nightmares in the last night. I was actually a really scared because he looked like would've had an epileptic seizure. Yeah I called a nurse.
For his own safety it was better to transfer him to another hospital bed. Nurse gave a relaxants for him so it would be easier (for him) to sleep.
I remember that when I was a child dad and mom used to have same kind of paralysing nightmares. It was so scary to see. I do have an trauma caused my those times.
Gus was instantly worried at morning when he wasn't next to me. But he smiled when saw me at the next bed. But the IV in hand was so called crisis for him. I laughed because it looked so funny how he was scared of IV tube.
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Augustus
Last night was a horrible. I had so many flashbacks again. And I feel bad for Hazel... that she had to see me like that.
It was a good describtion to ptsd when she said that I looked like a person who has an epileptic seizure.
Those flashbacks were even worse than normally. At first there was images from the accident, then Wilson's death, news about Hazel's situation and lastly from my amputated leg.
In next week I am starting a trauma therapy for twice a week. I hope that it'll help a little bit. So I wouldn't be as unstable as now. Also some mates are travelling from the UK to see us who are at here.
I am disappointed that Mr Lancaster only visited once. Really he does owe that for Hazel of being absent for so many years. He is meant to be there for his daughter.
Many of soldiers do die at missions, many of us don't get the opportunity to say goodbye for the loved ones. I was a lucky one to survive.
I am supposed to feel thankful, but I only feel quilty for those who passed out.
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My traumatized heart
FanfictionHazel is traumatized after the accident of Augustus. 'It took a forever for my mom to walk to my room. When she reached it she still was crying. She cried when she said one name. At that one moment my whole world crumbled down. I thought I was goin...
