All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 8

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You need to get over him, he's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears, yes you loved him and very greatly for all to see, I know that. I also know that you just can't see yourself with anyone else other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should we spend all of our time sitting at home, crying our eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Should we honestly believe he is thinking about us too? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there and falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you're going to see him with one of his new girlfriends one day and that might be in the coffee shop or down the street. So prepare yourself because it's going to hurt. He is going to hold her a little bit closer and squeeze her hand a little bit tighter just because he knows that you're watching. He knows that it's killing you from the inside and that's what's driving him to do it. Don't let him get to you because that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him the satisfaction of that he doesn't fucking deserve it. So what if he's not talking to you everyday? Did you really expect yourself to want to be friends with this kind of asshole? Because the thing is I know you still do, you just need to give it time, all he is going to do is talk about his new love and try in every way to get you jealous in the process and do you really want to hear that? Screw him and his new fucking girlfriend. He will be sorry one day. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him with a big smile on your face and your boyfriend holding you as close as he did to his new girl, he will come to realize how happy you are now. He will see how happy your boyfriend is because he has you. The girl of his dreams it will be then when he realizes his biggest mistake was when he decided to let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he came to the conclusion that he just didn't love you the same way. Trust me, he will be the one who's sorry, don't you sit there thinking he won't be because I guarantee you he will be one day. So don't continue to go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you're never going to get, or that message you know he is never going to send, simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend and he likes to play these little games where he doesn't see that you are online, he does it out of spite just because he knows it's killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he will look at you, and you need to know that he's doing this because he knows inside it will hurt you. I'm not here to lie to you. It will hurt, it will hurt a lot but it will hurt you even more when you see her as his new profile picture, knowing you're not the girl anymore that used to make him smile, knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up in the morning or the last person he sees before going to bed. Knowing you're not the face of that background on his phone, knowing if he hasn't already will delete the cute album you had created of pictures, know that you won't be the first to spend every single moment with him, know that there's never going to be any more late night phone calls or arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what maybe today or tomorrow or next week, or even from fucking months from now; your phone will go off with a text message that will make you want to grab it hoping that it's him saying he wants to give the relationship another shot. But just know even if he wanted to get back together with you he honestly wouldn't have the nerve to tell you. And you my dear will soon come to realize this, he doesn't care about you anymore, he won't be the first person you call when you're upset. He won't be the first one to put that smile back on that pretty face and I know it's going to fucking hurt. A lot. But I can tell you what it is you're going to do? You are going to be the one to hold your beautiful head up high and you are going to be the one to show him that you were always better than he ever was and you won't need him in this extravagant life that you live. You will prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting such a wonderful thing like you go and it will show you you never really needed him after all