𝙐𝙉𝙁𝙊𝙍𝙂𝙀𝙏𝙏𝘼𝘽𝙇𝙀, 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘶𝘺𝘢. 𝘯

3𝘼𝙈 ; 𝙛𝙞𝙫𝙚

you spent the night tossing and turning.

eventually, you stopped and allowed yourself to stare up at the ceiling for awhile. the events of the earlier days replaying in your mind as you thought more about what chuuya had said. about you rejecting him.

why.. did you reject him anyways? the way he made it seem, it sounded like you loved him dearly. you wanted to ask dazai about it, but you were certain he would refuse to answer.

perhaps you could reboot your memory if you stayed with chuuya for a few days? being in that environment that you had been in before everything could've brought memories back. probably not entirely, but hopefully enough to find out what led you to where you are.

you deciding to text him and ask if it would be possible for it to like reset if you did do that. plus, asking if it would be possible for you to stay over.

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you:
would it be possible for me to remember everything if i stayed at the mafia with you? like if i was in the environment

you didn't expect to get a reply so suddenly though. but he did mention how everything got messed up when you technically 'died.'

chuuya
perhaps. that's always a possibility.

why? do you want to try it?

you
for sure. plus i'm getting awfully sick of this hospital.

you know how i can to visit you yesterday? yeah. they gave me a whole speech on sneaking out.

chuuya
hospitals annoy the fuck out of me. so that's fair, i can understand that quite a bit.

but sure, when do you want to come over? tomorrow?

you
i was thinking tonight, actually. it would be easiest to sneak out during the nights

chuuya
• • •

you watched cautiously as he typed, a little nervous on what he would say. you desperately wanted to get out of dazais house, knowing he was lying was eating away at you, and you couldn't even mention anything to him about your conversation with chuuya.

chuuya
yeah. that's fine.

which hospital is it? i'll come pick you up.

you
i'll walk, don't worry about it

chuuya
..it's raining. i'm not letting you walk in the middle of the night while it's raining.

you
it's fine seriously

chuuya
it's raining.

you
just give me like twenty minutes then

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you couldn't believe how nice he was. it was such a simple gesture and you were already falling head over heels for him, again.

but this time was worse.

you didn't know who he was. how important he was to you.. let alone your past with him. but, you could tell he loved you. he just had a way with words and how his tone sounded that you were certain he absolutely loved you. the energy was there, but your mind wasn't. that was the issue.