kiara pov : TW! SUCIDIE ATTEMPT AND SELF HARM.
[ kiaras start of her kook year; age 16]
[rafe; age 17]
I'm sitting alone at the beach at my secret spot and I hate it at the Kook Academy, I just don't fit in. I'm so different, why am I so different? I hate everything about me, I am a pogue and nothing like the others. I hate how I act, how disrespectful I am, how I always speak my truth, my hair, my clothes, everything!
I start to sob violently and pull my hair trying to stop, but suddenly I felt strong arms around me and I jump a little. I look up because I see a shadow in front of me on the sand and it's. It's Rafe Motherfucking Cameron. "Are you okay?" He asks me, I get nervous. I've always noticed Rafe in the hallways with his friends or making out with his girlfriend Sofia, I've always been jealous of her. Rafe's hair is falling in front of his face and he has a worried look on his face, I can't stand to look at it any longer. "Yes, I'm fine thank you. I have to go now." I say quickly and get up while rubbing my face and running to my car to drive off, why does he care about me? I look at my mirror and see him looking at my car.
Once I get home I run straight to my room and jump on my bed. I squeal like a little girl and suddenly forget all of my suicidal thoughts earlier, Rafe Cameron actually noticed who I am! Thinking about him makes me squeal like a little girl, he was so up close to my face but I was just so freaking stupid and decided to run away from him. I hate myself so much. I scream into my pillow and doze off into sleep.
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I'm walking out of my last period and I'm already feeling depressed and wanting to cry. As I'm walking to my locker, I accidentally bump into someone. "Oh, I'm so sorry!" I immediately say and look up to see who I bumped into, "Kiara hey, are you good? Look about yesterday," I cut him off. "Uhm, yes I'm fine. Good seeing you!" I run away as fast as I can out of school and I can hear his heavy footsteps following me, God what does he want now? As soon as I open my car door, I see a strong a hand slam it shut. "Kiara, be honest are you okay? I was worried about you since yesterday." He was worried about me? I used to be friends with his sister Sarah in middle school, but everything has changed now. "Yeah, I'm okay Rafe." I scoff, "Can I go into my car now?" He looks down at me, "Only if I can catch a ride." I think about it for a little, I mean why not? "Sure, I guess." We both get into my car. "So, where do you need to go?" I ask him while avoiding eye contact. "Anywhere is fine." He responds nonchalantly, what's wrong with him?
I pull into my driveway and get out the car, I walk to the front door without looking back at him. I walk in and head straight upstairs, he's following me. I'm setting my backpack down, I hear my door close and I look at Rafe. "Are you sure you're okay Kiara? You were crying really hard yesterday." He says while getting closer to me, "Yeah I'm fine. I think." I burst out in tears and he puts his arms around me, reassuring me everything will be alright. I look up at him, he parts my hair out of my face. He leans forward and we start to kiss, he bites my lip asking for entrance into my mouth and I let him. His warm hot tongue slid into my mouth and I accidentally moaned into his mouth, I can feel him smile and his grip with his big strong hands tighten around my waist. We pull apart from each other, breathing heavily. "I want to have sex with you." I say boldly, but I slightly cringe at my boldness. Rafe chuckles a little and he pushes me down on the bed with one hand while his other hand took off his shirt. When he took off his shirt he had some really toned abs and a huge v-line, I followed his happy trail with my eyes which lead to the big bulge in his shorts. I lightly touch it and he grabs my hand while he pulls down his shorts with his boxers. I was amazed at how long his dick was and he was white!
He sticks his fingers into the waistband of my shorts and pulls them down. He lightly runs his fingers through my cunt and then violently slid his dick in with ease because of how wet I was. "Fuck, you don't know how long I wanted to do this with you." He breathes out while holding on to the headboard of my bed, he pulls my legs up onto his shoulders to get a better grip. I cover my mouth with my hands to keep myself from moaning, I feel embarrassed. "Kiara don't do that, I want to hear you." The blonde says while lightly removing my hands from my mouth. I moan loudly in pleasure while he continues to slam into me, he rubs my clit with his two fingers and slows down his pace but still manages to slam into me. I can't hold it in anymore, it's just so overwhelming with his dick penetrating me. "Rafe, I can't please." I beg him to slow down, but he just speeds up even faster and then I cum all over his cock with a loud moan. Rafe makes his pace faster and then suddenly pulls out. I grab his arms to try to get him and stay with me, but instead he shoots his semen all over me, I hear a camera click and I feel my soul leaves my body. "Kiara, relax I just need a new contact picture for you. Now that you are mine."
