Tʜɪs ⵊs Hᴏᴍᴇ | ᴛʀᴀɴs!Tᴜʙʙᴏ AU

Mʏ Eʏᴇs Wᴇɴᴛ Dᴀʀᴋ...ⵊ Dᴏɴ'ᴛ Kɴᴏᴡ Wʜᴇʀᴇ Mʏ Pᴜᴘɪʟs Aʀᴇ

TW// cussing, cyber bullying, making fun of someone for having dead relatives & being fostered, crying, sappy stuffs, talk of getting beat up

Tubbo's POV
like a week later?

I hadn't seen Lucas at school for a few days. I wondered if he got expelled or suspended.

I was sitting at my desk on my personal laptop, not the one I use for school, when a little red dog popped up on my Gmail tab. I had never received a notification from here before, so I was confused.

I clicked the tab, seeing the unread message. I clicked on it and read it through. I heart skipped a beat, and I slowly typed back a reply. And then our conversation began.

(The other person is this
Tubbo is this)

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Hallo, Aleshaaa ;)
You already know who I am
My name's Lucas ;P

Hello?
How did you get my personal Gmail?

I literally just had to google you
Not that hard, really
I know your birthday and everything now

Okay, one, that's creepy
Two, everything?
And three, why would you waste time doing that when you could've just messaged me on our school emails?

Because the stupid people in the office can see it
They can see everything we send/receive
DUHHHHH, stupid 🙄

Ok well wtf do you want?
To fuss at me for my brother beating the shit out of u?
That's your own fault, if so.

Well yeah, my face is fucked up!
It's gonna be for like two weeks!

Mine is too you dumbass!
Both our faces are fucked at the moment!
You aren't special

Fuck you

Go to hell

Ur stupid ass dad called the school
Then THEY called MY parents
I'm in so much trouble, you know
One, because I beat you up
And two, because I lied to them about what happened to my face
Told my parents I tripped down the school's stairs
I'm lucky to even have my laptop rn!

That's not MY fucking fault!
And Phil isn't stupid stfu
He's great

At least I live with my ACTUAL parents
and not a FOSTER family
LLLLLLL
Imagine ur family dying 😆
Yeah, I had to do lots of research on you to find your Gmail
I know a lot now

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I stared at the message for I don't even know how long. Seconds? Minutes? I dunno. After some time, though, the screen went blurry from tears in my eyes. Then after a little long the screen went black. Was it dead, did it time out? I don't know that either.

I shut the laptop and rested my hands on the lid, sitting motionless in my chair as a few tears ran down my face. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, but I couldn't. I couldn't because my foster family would probably think I was dying or that someone was broke in, or both.

I buried my head in my crossed over arms on the desk and quietly cried. My shoulders shook and my body heaved with every silent sob that escaped me.

I wanted my family back. Yes, I love Tommy, I love Phil. And I love Techno and Wilbur...but I just want to see my mum again. I wanna hug her and feel her soft kiss on the top of my head. I want my dad, and the way that he was like my superhero. And Lani. I wanna watch television with her just one more time. Just once. I would give my life to do that again.

And I wanna be able to tell them who I really am.

There was a knock on my door and I shot up. My sleeves were stained wet with my tears. My face was soaked and breathing was shallow.

"Tubbo?! Hey, Tubbo, are you ok?" Tommy's voice asked. Apparently my sobs had gotten louder when I was lost in my thoughts. "Tubs?" He asked again. My doorknob jiggled like he was trying to open it, but it was locked. "Tubbo?!" He knocked a few more times, causing my door to rattle. "I'm gonna get dad!" He said.

"W-Wait! No, don't, I'm fine!" I yelled. "Can I come in? Why are you crying?" He asked. "It's- It's nothing, just- just go away, I wanna be alone." I coughed, sniffing. "Are- Are you sure..? You don't need- like- a hug or something?"

I sat for a moment, thinking.

"Y-Yeah...I do..." I said. "Can you unlock the door then?" "Mhm..."

I stood up, nearly tripping on my half asleep legs. I went over and I unlocked the door, opening it slightly to reveal a worried looking Tommy. I opened the door the rest of the way and he walked in, closing it behind him. He immediately hugged me tight, to which I did back, the tears on my face wetting his shirt.

"Oh my god, what happened? I could hear you crying from my room!" Tommy said. I shook my head, burying my face in his shirt. "I don't wanna talk about it." I sniffed. "Ok, that's fine. We don't have to."

It was silent for a minute or so before I pulled away from our hug.

"Fuck, I'm sorry." I dryly laughed, wiping the tears for, my face. "T-Tubbo, how long have you been crying?" Tommy suddenly asked. "I-I dunno, an hour? Why?" I replied. "You're eyes are literally red. I think it's been more than just an hour." "Oh..."

It was quiet for a brief moment.

"Thank- Thank you. For the hug, I mean. Could you go now? I...kinda wanna just lay down and rest for a bit." I said. "Yeah, of course! Do you want me to tell dad that you just went to bed?" Tommy asked. I nodded. "Ok, well, G'night." He said. "Night, Tommy."

He then left my room and closed the door. I went over, flopping onto my bed and grabbing my phone.

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Ranboo 👑

Hey can we talk for a bit?
Something happened and I don't wanna talk
about it but I just wanna get my mind
off of it so ur my distraction

Yeah!
I'll distract you!

Thanks :')

Mhm!
Ooo!
Do you have Discord?
If not can you get it?
I wanna add you to a GC
with me, Nikki, Purp, and Tommy!
That way we can all chat together!

Yeah!
I can't on my my phone
but I'll get it on my laptop :D

Yayayayay!

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I cautiously opened my laptop, seeing that I had no Gmail notifications. I exhaled in relief and went to download Discord.

Pretty soon, I had given Ranboo my name and number, they added me to a group chat, and I was talking with him, Nikki, Purpled, and Tommy until I got tired and went to bed.

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