Ereri/Riren Week 2015

Crying Daffodil

The second chair from the back beside the window.

He had several piercings hidden by his raven hair, his face is naturally like he was constantly in a bad mood.He had a clean undercut hairstyle. He once fell asleep on english class. He's a bit shorter than his friends, yet he is well-built. Likes to clean the classroom 'til it sparkles when he is on cleaning duty and he plays soccer.

He's a year older, and his birthday is on december the 25th. His two bestfriends' names are Hanji and Erwin. And his is Levi Rivaille.

These are the information that Eren got from watching his sketch subject from the art room window.

Well some of it was from a bit of evesdropping from the teachers, or when his friends are talking to him in the hallway, and don't forget about the loud gossiping girls.

Yes, The green eyed brunette never had any interaction to the said raven-haired senior. He could only watch him from afar with longing feelings.

The only thing he could do was to draw him in his sketchbook in the art room. But sometimes he would just watch him for hours till the bell in the school would chime telling the students to go home or they would be locked in.

The view from the art room's window was perfect. He could see Levi in his classroom and also when he's at the soccer field.

He didn't need to worry about others to judge him weird, for sitting for hours looking at the window or seeing his tons of sketches of Levi. As the other member of the club wasn't interested in the art itself and never came to the club-room. It was good for him. As if the room was all for his use only.

No one knew about his little crush to his senior. Not even his closest friends. He kept his mouth sealed. And it's his little secret.

He didn't even know when it had started. The only thing he knew was his eyes always found the raven-haired's figure on his own. And there was already a sketchbook full of him by the time he realized he was in love.

He never dared to talk, moreover to confess his love. He was afraid of rejection. The guy was his first love. He didn't know what to do. And he knows his little heart won't handle the pain from it.

So he could only express his feelings by drawing. But he wouldn't let the raven-haired senior see his sketches. He wouldn't let anyone see it. It was only for himself, As it was his feeling in it.

But lately, he couldn't contain the feeling anymore. He had sketched and sketched till his hands were tired. He had tried to distract himself from watching him. He even tried to watch him longer from the window, but it just became worse.

He was confused. He didn't know what else he could do.

Then one day he saw, The raven being approached by a girl - a girl other than his bestfriend, Hanji.

She was passing him some notes and chatted with him alittle. But when he saw her giggling, something in him snapped. He didn't realize he broke his pencil in his hand, until the pain started to feel and droplets of blood drops from his palm.

He was shocked at his own behaviour. He got his hand treated. But he didn't know how to stop the pain in his chest.

Each day the pain became worse, and worse. His head was filled with stupid, negative thoughts that he couldn't help but think about.

He hadn't been to the art room over a week now. His friends were concerned about him, but he brushed it off. He needed to subdue the pain by himself. And his friends seems to believe that he just needed some fresh air from art.

It's been months now, when he last held his drawing pencil. It's been months since he went to the art room. It's been months he last saw the grey eyed raven through the art room window.

And tomorrow will be the senior's last day in school - tomorrow will be the last day he will see Levi through the art room window.

The last few months had been nothing but subduing the pain in his chest until it stayed in. But when it began to become dull, he felt empty.

The next day, the tall brunette made his way to the art room. He got his sketchbook out and a new pencil in his hand.

It was as usuall, alone looking through the window of the art room with just his sketchbook and pencil.

The Raven was still in the school and on top of that in his usuall chair in the classroom. Maybe he was in luck, as it is the last day to see his sketch subject.

He began his sketch on the paper, remembering every detail of the raven's face. He drew like he was compensiating the time he wasted to avoid the art room. He drew the raven sitting at his classroom, looking outside towards somewhere.

After the drawing finished, the brunette stayed on his seat looking at the drawing. There was tightness in his chest, just remembering that it is his last day.

He picked up his pencil with shaky hands and scribbled some words below the drawing. Chocked sobs escape from his lips, As droplets of tears fell down onto the paper. He took the sketchbook in his arms and hugged it tightly on his chest where his heart beats. He stayed like that till his tears dried, leaving only a painful feeling in his heart when he looked at the empty chair on the empty classroom.

"I love you..." Eren whispered.