For the last several months I've been making a study of the man.
To get a better sense of who he was,
how he thought, his Mind.
As I've said, I have unfettered access to all he formerly possessed.
Everything.
Troubling.
All the works he had written,
many unpublished,
tucked away in various places.
Three months of studying,
one theme kept coming.
It became clear, my understanding:
a life of the sword, so goes your death.
That's what we've heard or been told, yes?
He got more than he bargained for?
More than he deserved? Demon possessed.
He wrote much about that so I won't repeat it.
One thing that is worth mentioning,
a thing you've already known:
he was a very sexual person.
This you know.
Sometimes death can be Freedom.
A release from all that burdens.
The burden of a troubled mind, for instance.
He had 2 releases from this condition.
The sexual release which he chased often.
And the gruesome Death that felled him.
In one of his private notes, he wrote of the contract he undertook to kill a 6 year old.
I caution you: a hard read follows:
I am not one to judge.
We've all done things we wished we did not.
Though there are some things always we should not!
2 rules to which we, in this life, should all adhere:
We do not murder the Elderly.
We do not kill the children.
A troubled mind haunted him.
Hounded him.
To his eternal grave.
I'd say Rest in Peace again.
But I know that will not happen.
