Second Chance Mate

Awakening

It's been days since my encounter with Alpha Felix. Aaron has been nice enough to bring food to my door, even though I only poke it around my plate. I can't eat, I sure as hell can't sleep. All I can do is sit here with my back to the door and stare at the blank wall before me. Why am I being punished? I don't know what happened in there, but my wolf came out of the deepest parts of me. She was howling and screaming that Alpha Felix was my mate, but that isn't possible. You only have on mate, and my mate rejected me, but based on Felix' s reaction he felt it too. Anger surges through my body at the fact that I've been rejected once again. I can't keep going through this. Not anymore.

I stand up and march to the door, I slowly pull it open, trying not to make a sound. I peak my head out of the door and as soon as I see its clear I'm off and down the hall. My body tingles once more as I pass his door but I let my anger push it back into the deepest parts of me. I make it outside and I make a run for the edge of the woods, the only good thing about not having my wolf is that it has made my human body a faster runner. I still miss my wolf though, I can feel her deep inside me somewhere, but she's so bound with grief she won't get up. Sooner or later she'll fade away completely and I'll no longer have my wolf. That thought quickly leaves me when I notice I am flying towards the ground with a pair of strong arms around me. My body is on fire this I don't even notice we've hit the ground. Everything tingles, and once again I feel my wolf stirring inside of me, but this time she's quiet. Felix has me pinned to the ground, he's straddling me and his hands hold mine hostage on either side of my head. He waits for our breathing to calm but I'm struggling because I can't keep calm when he's touching me like this. "Where do you think you're going?" He asks bemused. I don't know if he's confused as to why I'm leaving or if he's confused because he can't explain this feeling either. I keep silent and just stare at him, my wolf growls within me and tell me to answer him. We just continue staring each other down. Our eyes meet and all of a sudden I'm taken back in time, but it's not my history. It's his.

He's screaming and his face is wet with tears. He's holding someone, it's a girl. He's rocking back and forth just gasping for air. "Please come back to me" he says in a soft whisper. Oh my God that's his mate.

The image disappears and all I see before me are Felix' s crystal blue eyes. "Now you know." He sAys dropping his head. My wolf nudges me to speak up, but this time I don't need her encouragement to speak up. "I thought being rejected by my mate was the worse thing possible, but yours was taken from you..." he looks up at me and says, "I saw, but why did he reject you?" I move myself out from underneath him and sit up, placing my back against a tree. "I don't know honestly. He hated me since day one. I thought there was supposed to be nothing but love between mates but he hated me to my core. I could feel it. It felt like my heart physically cracked." He nods his head and asks me once more, "why were you running away just now?" I look away embarrassed by my answer. He growls lowly and fixes his eyes on mine. "Answer me" his Alpha is starting to come out and it makes my stomach twist. "I couldn't be rejected again. I don't ever want to experience that again. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy." He looks away at my words and nods his head. After what seems like a long aching silence, he stands and brushes himself off and steps aside. "You may leave." My jaw drops at his words, I was expecting him to tell me, no beg me not to leave but instead he gives me the exact opposite. "I had my mate, and she was ripped away from me. I had my chance and So did you. That's it. Now you're more than welcome to stay with my pack but whatever this is-" he motions between us, "it's not real, and I don't know why it's happening but you can either suck it up and ignore it or you can runaway." I flinch at his words but my wolf growls at me to stay. Levena has finally awakened and I'm afraid that if I leave I'll lose her forever. "I'll stay." He nods and doesn't look at me as I stand up and follow behind him heading back to the pack house. As I see the dim lights of the house my lace speeds up, I want to distance myself from him.

I don't reciprocate his good night as I rush to my door. Levena doesn't disappear, no this time I feel her intensify as a surge of determination soars through me. You know what we have to do. Levena says. My wolf is determined and quite possibly a little angry. I'm not sure if this is a test but we have to win him over. "Are you crazy?" I whisper to my wolf. "You heard what he said." Yes but I also heard his wolf. He is fighting with his wolf Ebony. He feels it too and knows it's not normal. We have to make him jealous. We have to get close to him. I feel Levena awaken within me with such power and finality that I know I can't argue with her. "I've missed you" I whisper to her. I know. She whispers back.