Second Chance Mate

Decision Time

Ebony

A soft knock on my door breaks the stream of tears that were steadily falling down my face. I attempt to quickly swipe them away as Felix enters the room. I grab the bed sheet to hide my naked body. He pauses for a second, probably fighting with James his wolf. That one second felt like forever though, "Ebony.." tears fall down my face once again as I hear his voice break on my name. He takes a few steps forward and it doesn't take much and I'm circled in his arms. We sit in silence as the last of my tears fall and I feel whole again with him holding me. Levena finally stopped whimpering and is quiet. "Ebony, I'm so sorry, I just don't know what to do in this situation. I'm so confused, but you didn't deserve to be treated that way. I don't know what I can give you right now, this all feels so soon but I can't handle knowing I'm the reason you're crying. He squeezes me tighter and I crawl in his lap nuzzling his neck and enjoying his sweet scent. I've never felt so much warmth, is this what it feels like when you're with your mate? "Say something, please", I look up to see a very somber Felix who looks like he hasn't slept in ages. I give him a small smile and say, "You look tired". He smiles at me weakly and nods his head in confirmation. "Let's just sleep then, we can figure all of this out in the morning", I said. Felix goes to move me off his lap but I hold him to me determined not to let him leave again. "No, you're sleeping here tonight. Just give yourself one night where you're not beating yourself up for something you can't control." I nuzzle him again and place a soft kiss on his neck. He sighs with content and possibly a little defeat and lays us back against the bed.

I'm never going to forget this. Even after tonight if he decides he doesn't want to give us a chance, I will forever hold this memory to my heart. I'm going to be so pissed though if after tonight he decides he doesn't want me. "I thought you said no beating yourself up"? I look up at Felix, "What"? He gives me a small smile, "Take your advice and relax Ebony. I promise we'll talk tomorrow." He gives me one last squeeze and a kiss on the forehead before turning on his side and putting his back to me. Well, at least he sleeps realistically. I huff and turn my back to him as well. "Fine." is all I mutter before finally finding a restful sleep I haven't had in years.

***

When I wake up I find my very naked body pressed against and wrapped around a shirtless Felix. I could get used to this. Girl, me too. I smile as Levena resurfaces. I shiver as goosebumps form on my skin at the feel of Felix running his fingers softly down my back. "Mmm..Good morning", Felix whispers huskily. I'm trembling now as he pulls me on top of him and pulls my face down for a long deep kiss. Every part of me wants him but I know I can't let this happen again until we figure out if he's going to ignore the obvious pull we have or accept that I really am his second chance mate. I pull back from his searing kiss and rest my forehead on his. "I can't Felix, not until you know what you want." I gather the sheet around me and make my way to the shower, hoping some space will give him some time to think. The shower is hot and inviting, I can't believe I went two years without a proper one of these. Never again will I subject myself to living life as a rogue. I jump out of my thoughts when Felix is pressed against my back and grabbing the soap that's next to me. "Felix.." I try to act frustrated but I can't keep the satisfied smile off my face. Eb, he's choosing to be near us. Don't keep pushing him away. Maybe this is what he needs to make his decision. Remind him why he needs us. I smile at Levena's words and turn around to face Felix. I grab the soap from his hands and place a chaste kiss on his lips, "Here, let me"

I squeeze a small amount into my hands and slowly lather it against his body. I'm trying to hide the shaking but my body tingles every time I touch him. I break the silence by saying, "I left to shower so you could have some time to think". Felix winces as if he's torn when he says, "I know, but I just needed to feel you against me". I smile at his words but my heart sinks a little as his face portrays regret. "I don't know what to say to you Felix, I don't know how to convince you that we obviously have a connection. You know it's there, I know you can feel it." He steps out of my embrace and moves into the water to rinse off. "I don't know how to accept what we have without destroying the memory of what I had with her. I don't want to discredit the love I had with her if I move on with you." His words didn't hurt, but they didn't make me the happiest girl in the world either. "I don't want to take away what you had with her, that isn't my plan Felix. I know you loved her..." I pause trying to find the right words to say to him. "Maybe it's not taking away what you guys had, maybe I'm meant to add to it. Someone has to look after the Alpha while he looks after the pack." That was smooth, and James agrees. Show him that you can love him too. I reach around Felix and turn the water off grabbing his neck and bringing him down to my lips. I kiss him with so much intensity. As if I'm trying to convince him with my lips. We fumble out of the shower and make our way to the bed. I spent the next hour showing Felix what he'd miss out on. I know he wants this, I just have to help guide him. He can love me too and still have the love he had for her in the past, but in order for him to be a good Alpha for his pack he's going to have to stop worrying and living so much in the past. If this pack is to thrive and survive it needs a strong Alpha who now looks forward to the future.