Second Chance Mate

Run

Felix

I've been running for so long now I can't tell where I am. I can't stop though, because once I do I'll be racing toward her. Every part of me wants to turn around and throw myself back in her embrace. But it isn't right, it's not fair to Layla. I had my mate and now she's gone. I don't get a do over, but why does everything in me want her so much. God she felt so amazing, I can't deny that. I don't even think I experienced something like that with Layla. Get ahold of yourself Felix. I know you miss her, so do I but you can't do this to us. Maybe this really is our second chance. I come to an abrupt halt, my claws digging into the wet earth. "I can't just let go of her, and not for some..some stupid girl. You can't actually be buying into this crap can you James?" My wolf James growls at me. Watch it Felix. If what happened back there wasn't enough to convince you I don't know what will. "Nothing will convince me. That girl is nothing to me." I shift back into my human form, James has too much power over me when I'm in wolf form. There's no such thing as a second chance mate, Layla was my mate and now she's gone there's no one else for me. Then how do you explain what happened back there Felix? It wasn't just for fun. This pull is even stronger than what we had with Layla and Lexi. I miss them too, but we can't go on like this forever. "I know, I know, my pack will never be as strong unless I have a mate." Something is coming Felix and it will wipe us out unless we're on top of our game. You know the other pack is preparing for a fight. Ebony might just be the key that we need in order to win this fight. "So you're saying you only want Ebony and Levena because of a fight that's coming? That's low James, even for me." James growls and says through clenched teeth, you know damn well that I want her for more than just power, but it's the only argument I have that'll get you to give Ebony a chance. The longer you sit in your depression, the more I fade. Ebony just got her wolf back, ask her what it felt like for Levena to be gone.

I've heard of cases where wolves disappear after a stressful event, but they're rare, almost never seen. Most of the time once you lose your wolf it's gone forever, very few can recover. I sigh feeling defeated, "Fine James. I'll consider it." I let James take over as I shift back into my wolf form. The damp earth feels cool beneath my paws and James runs as fast as he can back to the pack house.

If I had the time I would run for hours, I could never get enough of this feeling of flying through the trees. I've been so restless since I lost Layla, I don't know what to do with myself. I just want to run and never look back. Sometimes I want to runaway from this life and the responsibilities that fall on my shoulders. I know I'm an Alpha and not supposed to feel this way, but it's so hard to do when you're doing it alone. I look ahead and see the trees start to thin out, the closer I reach the pack house the more my heart sinks. Way to go asshole. She's crying. James stops halfway in the backyard and we listen in closely, Ebony's soft sniffles echo in my ears and my heart clenches, I'm swarmed with nothing but regret. "I'm not ignoring the pull I feel towards her, but I can't do it James. It feels too soon to just move on like that, but how do I sit by and listen to her cry. It's physically hurting me." My heart squeezes once more as I hear her sobbing louder. I can picture her wrapping her arms around herself and rocking back and forth trying to keep herself together. God this is so hard. Fight with yourself all you want, but I'm not losing Levena because you can't make up your mind. We're going in.

Now we're running again, not away from our problems like I so often wish I could do. We're running, sprinting, and pushing to get to Ebony. I want to hold her close and apologize till I've lost my voice, but another part of me wants to run for the hills. I'm in way over my head.