The Ones Who Stayed

Chapter 1

This is the end,

I couldn't breathe,

I kept talking, but no voice came out of my mouth.

My whole body was frozen;

I couldn't even blink for a second as I looked down the sink my hands covered with blood.

Am I dreaming?

Please let this be a dream.

I didn't dare to touch myself with those bloody hands.

I kept washing my hands in panic, never knew blood was so thicker,

I was gasping as tears rolled down my eyes.

Everything was so blank to me I couldn't remember anything.

If there is something called the end, I really hope it does feel like this.

It's true like what they say, my whole life was flashing in front of me.

I had to do something I can't die like this.

I was running out of breath, with my whole body sweating.

I crashed down the floor to find my phone;

I tossed myself over, and called her.

She didn't pick yet, as the voices in my head started taking over me.

Stop crying

Stop crying

Please stop crying

I kept shouting at myself, burying my face with my hands. It's scary when your life keeps flashing between you.

My eyes kept looking at a knife even thou, I didn't really wanted to look at it.

Just cut your veins the voice kept telling me.

Even after washing so many times I could still imagine the blood in my hands.

I didn't have the courage to hold the knife as I felt weaker and weaker, while the phone rang.

It was her.

My voice cracked slowly,

"I killed him. Didn't I".

"All of this is my fault, it'll be Easy for everyone if I just disappeared isn't it", I murmured.

"Stop.. Stop it. It's nothing like that just hold yourself I'm coming there in a minute" , she cried

"No don't please, I'll kill you also.

It was me all along.

I never could remember how or why.

But I can feel it now. It was me, isn't it?"

"Just calm down you are having an episode, I'm coming over just stay there", and she gasped.

"You all thought it was me, didn't you, I guess after all u were right.

I hope I'll at least remember killing myself.

It's okay. I already feel like I'm dead.

And I just wanted to let you know I might not remember a lot. But you guys were the one who made me cry.

And before I forget this also I love you.

I love you all.

I wish I could remember all of this.

And I think I will."

"Please keep talking and hold on just for two more minutes please", she kept shouting.

"I'm sorry, I tried, I tried really hard.

They are calling me.

I have to go."