I Hate U, I Love U

9. All In

"Wow, If I have this view every night, you won't see me anymore the moment the sun sets. I'll always come running home for this."

"I knew you'd love it here."

"Sobra, ang ganda dito." sabi ko looking at him then back at the magnificent view before me.

"Nakakatuwa kang tingnan." napatingin muli ako sa kanya. "I mean, I love how mesmerized you are with what you are seeing right now."

"I don't know, night lights calm me. It always does."

"Hey, about what happened earlier, again, I am sorry."

"Kaya mo ba ako dinala dito para masigurado mong kalma na ako? Nice strategy." I jokingly said.

"You can say that. " natatawang sagot naman nya. "But I brought you here for this..." kinuha nya mula sa likod ang isang gitara. "I've wanted to play this to you for a long time. I want you to hear this first bago ko ipasa sa mga boss ng agency. This is a new song I wrote, and hopefully, it will be included in our album. I want to hear your thoughts." He strummed his guitar and started singing.

~~All night staring at the ceiling
counting for minutes I've been feeling this way
So far away and so alone~~

I am just watching him sing his heart out, and again I was reminded why I got so into this man. He is so into his craft and it shows every time he sings, he sings from the heart.

~~But you know it's alright
I came to my senses
Letting go of my defenses
There's no way I'm giving up this time
Yeah, you know I'm right here
I'm not losing you this time~~

I was so engrossed in his singing when all of a sudden he lifted his gaze from his guitar to me and looked straight into my soul while singing the song as if he was talking to me through his music. Again, my insides are at war.

And I'm all in, nothing left to hide
I'm falling harder than a landslide
I spent a week away from you last night
And now I'm calling, calling out your name
Even if I lose the game, I'm all in
I'm all in tonight, yeah I'm all in, I'm all in for life~~

Hindi ko alam paano ko nagawang makipagtitigan sakanya ng ganun katagal habang kumakanta sya, but the moment he finished his song I melted. What is happening? Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyayari sa akin, but I feel like bursting with flowers and fireworks altogether.

I tore my gaze and looked everywhere but him. "Wow, ang ganda, for sure your agency will love it. Nothing beats a song that comes from their own experience and you make me feel like you are singing your heart out to someone you're dedicating it to."

"Well, it is. I wrote this thinking of a certain someone." from my peripheral vision, I can see he is looking at me. Pinagpapawisan ako sa kabila ng lamig ng paligid.

"Great. You have an inspiration for writing the song. You have to thank that 'certain someone', you made a wonderful song and you sang it so beautifully that I even felt it while listening to you."

"Thank you, then..." bigla namang sabi nya.

"Of course, it is so beautiful. I am sure it will be included in your album, malay mo maging title track pa sya" may sense pa ba ang mga sinasabi ko? Hindi na ako makapag isip ng maayos at hindi ko alam kung bakit.

I felt his hand on mine. Napatingin ako sakanya. "I mean, thank you for being the inspiration for this song."

"What?" anong sasabihin ko, ewan, hindi ko alam. Ano bang nangyayari kasi?

"I'm all in, nothing left to hide, I'm falling harder than a landslide. Even if I lose the game... no, scratch that, I will make sure I will win this, I'm all in, I'm all in for life."