newt x male reader

hope

Pov: You went with Thomas after he decided to run into the maze 5 seconds before it closed.

(This story will be written in Newt view, his thoughts and worries)

(Newts Pov)
The walls closed. That's it. He's gone... Forever. Thomas too. Y/n and Thomas. In my head i already see us crossing out their names, but Chuck said we should wait. They're not gonna come back. It's over. We all stood Infront of the wall. Still hoping it would be a joke. Gally laughed. "Okay okay it was so predictable that Greenie Thomas would run in there but Y/n" He didn't stop laughing. "He just killed himself. Wow."
I just wanna scream. What gave them the idea to run in there. Y/n knows whats out there. He knows that he's gonna die. We just lost 4 of our friends. Thomas has been here for one day, but i really liked him. Minho my best friend. What would've done without him. Alby, he's injured. Minho tried to save him... He was in here the longest. Alby always knew what to do. Y/n, my other best friend. But i didn't just feel like he was my best friend. It felt like he was my lover. I never told him what i feel.
Now he's gonna die. Who is going to share sandwiches with me? Who will sit with me at the fireplace and laugh with me? Who will wait for Minho Infront of the walls with me? Who is going to work with me all day long? He won't come back. I lost him forever. I want him back. I walked away from the wall. Away from everyone. I need to be alone.

I sat down against a tree. I let it all sink in. I lost all my closest friends. Chuck would say there's hope. I don't have hope. We already lost so many people to the maze. No one's surviving the maze. I need to sleep. But i don't think i can rest tonight. Or any of the next nights. What am i going to do without them. Chuck isn't gonna find peace either. I need to talk to him. We need to be here for eachother. I looked out for him. He sat infront of the wall, still staring at it. I forced myself up again and walked up to him. The moods here were different. Gally and his friends laughing while other gladers were shocked and worried. I sat down next to Chuck. "They're gonna come back. I know it.", Chuck said it so confident. He had hope. I had too. Minho knows what's out there. He knows the maze. I mean he never was in there at night but he could fight them out of there. Chuck sighs and said: "But Alby isn't gonna make it right?" I don't know. I wait to comfort him but to be honest i think he's right. I still thought of a way to comfort him. "Minho knows what to do. He's gonna save them all." Chuck yawns. "Chuck, we need the sleep i know it's hard but we have to work when the sun rises" "i wanna sleep here, i want to be the first one to be here." This boy has so muc hope. It's so sad. I didn't want to leave him here alone so i stayed with him. We talked a bit and i us something to rest our heads on. I took me long ro fall asleep but eventually i did.

I got awake thanks to Chuck and the walls opening. All of us were Infront of the wall hoping they'd come back. Then it happened. Minho and Thomas came around the corner. The were supporting the body of Alby. But Y/n... He wasn't there. Everyone was shocked. They were bombing Minho and Thomas full with questions.

Minho looked up to me. He handed me the self-made bracelet Y/n wore.
"This is what we found on the floor. We lost him. I'm sorry."