𝗟𝗘𝗙𝗧 𝗢𝗨𝗧, 𝗺.𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗼𝗹𝗼

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✰┊❛SWERVE❜┊✰

belly and her sister were walking through the hallways, it had been four days since the incident that belly and matt had and neither of the spoke, but matt thought they were okay

matt finally spotted them and macie left to leave them alone, taking his brothers with her.

matt smiled at her and latched his fingers around her waist, leaning into her.

there was a group of lacrosse boys from his team at the lockers staring directly at them, whispering and mumbling

belly stood frozen, not knowing what to do. she eventually just hugged him instead of kissing him.

the boys at the lockers suddenly giggled, and belly looked straight at them and just flipped them off. what was their problem? it wasnt even their business

"fuck off" she mouths to them, pulling away from matt with his hands still around her waist. they just leave and belly and matt are alone now

"what the fuck was that?" he asks

"matt you didnt mean that, the kiss. you just did it to impress the guys in the lacrosse team" she takes his fingers off her waist

"i did mean it though, i havent talked to you in four days" he frowns "are we even okay?"

"yes. we are, i think" she mumbles, looking down

"you think?" he raises his eyebrows

"matt i-" she starts

"isabel! matthew! get to class!" the principal exclaims

"ill talk to you later" she tells him

"no talk to me now, why did you swerve?" he says

"matt im sorry" belly walks in her classroom, closing the door

"son of a bitch" matt mumbles, leaving as well

it truly, physically and mentally, pained belly to talk to matt right there. she just didnt know why.

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the woman who birthed me💗:

belly:
can you come pick me up please??

the woman who birthed me💗:
Im at work

belly:
please mom. im really tired and my anxiety is acting up.

the woman who birthed me💗:
Okay. give me 20 minutes

belly:
thank you

the woman who birthed me💗:
I love you

belly:
i love you too

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belly sat in class, tapping her foot on the hard ground

after twenty minutes, the receptionist from the academic office finally came in the classroom

"im here for isabel davis" the receptionist, olivia, says

"isabel, you are dismissed" the teacher says

belly puts her things away in her backpack and leaves with the receptionist, getting im her moms car

"sorry for making you get out of work" belly says quietly

"its alright love" florence holds her daughters hand, driving to the house "are you okay?"

love, what florence called macie or belly when they needed comforting

"can we just, talk when we get home?" belly asks

"yep, of course" florence says

florence and her husband knew that her daughters anxiety was bad, and it sometimes got to the point where she would even pass out sometimes.

belly got diagnosed when she was seven, and even before that her parents knew that she was different from her twin sister, she was more closed to herself and didnt talk a lot.

once they got home, belly went to her room and collapsed on her bed, her hands on her face.

she let out a few deep breaths out before sitting up correctly and letting her hands fall on her lap

"hey love" her mom comes in the room "do you want to talk?"

belly nods, and once her mom sits down, the words just slip right off her tounge

she told her every. single. thing. even the explanation for the lighter

of course, she made florence cry, and florence crying made belly cry

florence and daniel had always been supportive of their daughters, no matter what, well supportive of everything but some select things

belly was getting a total deja vu moment from when she had told macie about her self harm

"i dont know what to do mom" belly sniffles, putting her forehead on her moms shoulder

"it'll be okay love" florence says, wrapping her arms around belly

"i mean, its very clear that i need a therapist or psychologist or something" belly says

"ill set up an appointment. but as of now?, i think you should talk to matt. he must be worried about you love" florence says

"im not ready to talk to him" belly looks down

"i understand" florence answers, putting her hand on bellys cheek "oh honey"

"ill be okay" belly says "i cant promise it"

"i know" florence says "ill be in my room"

"okay, bye mom" belly says

"bye daughter" florence says

belly smiles and florence closes the door.

belly falls back on her mattress. was she gonna be okay?

✰┊❛LEFT OUT❜┊✰