A Patient Of Eternity, My Crush...

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Andy's POV

I was a mamma's boy and I wasn't afraid to admit it. She was my hero and my inspiration. When everything got to me she was always there, cheering me on and standing up for me. She was the person who urged me to keep going when all I wanted was to curl up into a ball and escape my difficult life.

She was always there when I most needed her and now that she is here everything feels safer and the pain lessens. I feel better than I was before. She was my pain killers, draining away the broken shards within me and replacing them with the older, better version. I loved her so much so that my broken heart fixed slightly.

My heart had shattered into one thousand more pieces when I heard about Juliets attempt at destroying me. My one true love wanted to wreck my life... permenantly. I don't know if I should believe my mum or not but something in my heart tells me the truth. My mum wouldnt lie about something like that. She never lied about anything.

Then Juliet really did hate me. So much so that she was willing to shred the life I had dreamt of since I was young just so she can get revenge for whatever reason. A reason I do not know about. I gave her everything she could ever want, money, diamonds, jewelery and love. I loved her with all my heart and she decided to throw it all away. On another person.

I only wanted her to be happy. That is all I ever wanted. I didn't want to hurt her or anything like that. I only wanted her to be happy. I thought I could help her be the happiest person alive but faced with the facts in front of me, I guess I was doing the opposite. I never meant to start a war but I must of done something to build this wall between us.

Before I could get into a deeper self loathing, the front door slammed open, revealing a tense Ashley behind it. His strong frame straining against what I think is stress or might be anger, his eyes swirling with an emotion I can't pinpoint. He stormed in, slamming the door behind him.

I looked at my mum but she just smiled sadly and shrugged. My eyes wandered back to Ashley's tense form as he stopped and took a deep breath. His stormy eyes calming slightly with each gulp of air that entered his lungs. Soon enough he calmed down, the tense energy leaving his body slowly, almost hesitantly but that can't be right. Why would Ashley want to keep that negativity within him? Why would he force himself to be mad? What had made him mad enough that he wanted to keep the rage within him and not be calm?

Whatever the reason is I am unaware of it and I don't think I will get the reason why anytime soon. The moment Ashley looked at me, I was filled with dread and sadness that weighed me down. The conflicted emotions swirling in those brown eyes making me heart feel like lead. I couldn't understand it. Before I could ask what was wrong, he threw me one last reluctant glance before storming back out the front door, leaving me with worried thoughts and confused feelings.

"I remember when I first met Ashley when you first started the band. He was so different back then with the lighter hair colour and the bad boy attitude. At first I thought he was gonna be a jerk because of the way he treated ladies but I see Ashley in a new light that gives way to the him he tries to hide. I wish he didn't have to hide the real him, I think he is scared everyone will leave him if they knew but I know that you guys wouldn't leave him no matter what." My mum murmured, interrupting my thoughts.

"huh?" I blink.

"What I mean to say is that Ash cares too much and that hurts him more than anything. He worries about what his friends and family would think of him if they knew the real him so he hides behind a mask. He looks so sad...so broken..." She trailed off, lost in her thoughts.

"Ashley will be fine mum, Ash can handle whatever it is." I tell her but even as the words leave my mouth, I hesitate.

Can Ashley really handle it? I know the old Ashley would just rub it off and not care but this new Ashley is different, he seems more fragile than before. More confused. I dont know what to think about him anymore. He changed so much from the last time I saw him that I have no idea who he is anymore. Anything could have happened to him and I wouldn't have known because I was trapped in my own despair and couldn't escape the fate that had been given to me.

"Talk to him, Andy. Ashley needs to be reminded that he will always have a friend right here. " She spoke softly, before pressing her fragile hand against my chest where my heart would be. "You need to remind Ashley of the friendship he once had with everyone. Hopefully then he will be happier..."

Hopefully mum.

Hopefully.

Hia guys! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I went abroad then I had a busy week with school work and all that.

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