Between us • 𝖠 𝖤𝗅𝗅𝗂𝖾 𝖶𝗂𝗅𝗅𝗂𝖺𝗆𝗌 𝖥𝖺𝗇𝖿𝗂𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇 (Ellie Williams x female oc)

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A few weeks had gone by, Ellie's appearance was sporadic and short. She'd occasionally come to the room to get something she had forgotten but she never slept here. I've tried to talk to her a few times here and there but she never seemed to want to hold a conversation. I've texted and even called but they went unanswered. I was a wreck the first week and a half of not seeing her, talking to her everyday which I so stupidly got accustomed to. I don't know what went wrong and I dwelled on the possibility that there was something horribly wrong with me and that's why she distanced herself.

"You did nothing wrong there's something off with that girl." Liv my best friend, sat with me and held my hands. She was never one for sensitive wisdom and I wasn't sure if I wanted it from her either.
"No- you don't get it." I found myself wanting to defend the girl that has put me in this state. I didn't tell Olivia about the physical aspect of the friendship I had with Ellie I figured it would make liv hate her more.
"There's nothing to get. She fucked up and it's her loss." I flinch at her harsh words she used to describe my roommate. I knew about how soft and gentle she could be and how bright her eyes lit up when she talked about the things she loved. Olivia didn't. Sure, ditching someone with no say after doing something so intimate is fucked up but I knew there was more to her that I haven't seen yet.

Classes were attended, homework was done, and still nothing. At this point I haven't seen her at the room or talked to her in days, just the occasional glances from across the dining hall. She was either alone or with people I've never seen before. They looked like a rougher crowd and I recognized a few but only from stories. Stories like how they're drug dealer but not just for weed. Did Dina and Jesse know about the people she hung out with? Has Ellie talked to Dina recently? I doubt it. Dina seemed to really care about Ellie in a way a strict big sister would. I'm relying on her to get on Ellie's ass if she's going down the wrong path.

It was a Thursday afternoon, I had finished my last class of the day. I didn't really want to go back to the room. It felt cold, dark and haunted. I felt like I can either let it all go, forget about every interaction I've ever had with her or derail myself completely. If I knew what's best for me I'd just go about my time here, do what I need to do and leave but the thought of that hurt even more.

I found myself wondering the halls, dragging my feet with no particular direction in mind. I didn't have Dina's number but I knew where her dorm was and I figured this would be the last resort. Talk to Dina and maybe get some insight or if Ellie had spoken to her about anything.

My hand hovers over the dark wooden frame, hesitating the connection. I knock softly, feeling like maybe I'd be burdening her.
The door opens and Dina's face looked confused seeing my face, but turned into a sympathetic smile.
"Hey come sit." She motions her arm, stepping aside for me to enter.
I sit in a desk chair that swiveled slightly. I looked down at my hands and play with my fingers. I take a deep breath in hopes I'll think of something to say to explain why I'm here.
"You haven't seen Ellie?" Her tone was soft but concerned. She sat on her bed with her hands latched into the mattress on either side of her legs.
All I could do was shake my head. Being with Dina I feel a massive wave of emotion build up and when I see her face it all comes to the brim.
I cried harder than I was even anticipating. Dina rushes over to me and gets down to hold me, petting my head.
"Shh- it's okay. You're okay." She soothes me. It's like she's done this a millions times.
"I don't kno- I don't understand." I choke on my words. I felt so embarrassed, like I was being over dramatic. I take deep breaths to compose myself and gestured her that I was okay.
"Ellie-" she began to speak but was clearly struggling with what to say.
"She- well... she's been through a lot and she has a tendency to push herself away from things and people that are good for her." Dina stands me up and walks me to her bed, sitting me down.
I was silent for a minute, it made sense but at the same time it wasn't a good enough reason. I wanted to be understanding but I was angry, hurt and felt betrayed.
"She never really opened up to me about those types of things." I wipe the tears away with my sleeve, calming myself down.
"You don't owe it to her, but I promise she has so much good to offer if you just be patient." Dina pats the back of my hand.
I wanted to spill every feeling and thought I had in my head and I found the words at the edge of my tongue. 
"I like her- like really like her." I haven't told anyone not even my best friend about this new found crush but I figured Dina would be the right person to talk to about it.
"I don't know if this will make you feel better or worse but I think she likes you too." She lets out a humorless laugh, trying to up lighten up the mood.
"Have you talked to her or seen her lately?" I fidget with my hands unsure of wether or not I was prying too much.
"Not recently but she was sleeping here a couple of weeks ago. I tried telling her to go back but she'd get pissed so I stopped asking questions." From her tone I'm guessing they'd gotten into a argument of some sort over the matter.